im new to this

[presentnotperfect]

It is literally the hardest thing for me to reach out to others for help. I am usually the suffer-in-silence, help-everyone-else- with their issues to avoid dealing with my own. But at this point, I'm drowning in sadness and no matter what steps I take to get out of it, I just feel myself sinking lower. I feel like I'm constantly swallowing tears. Sleeping is almost impossible, eating is also a chore. Its like I don't even have the desire to do the bare mininum it takes to take care of myself. Almost everyday I feel like giving up. I try to push through as much as I can but I'm tired. I need a change and literally have no idea how long this is supposed to last but everyday I find myself sinking deeper into this hole of hopelessness. Everyone around me seems to be thriving in life and while I'm happy for them, I can't help but wonder if I'll ever get to experience that happiness in my own life. A lot of my family support thinks I am my own biggest enemy and I often stand in my own way. Any ideas on how to get out my own head?

[Swimmer22]

Be kind to yourself and try to find a doctor who can help. Don’t give up hope! Finding the right therapy (talk or meds) can do wonders. Hang in there!

[Llab]

Your condition sounds serious, possibly more serious than you realize, so you need to get professional help urgently. You say reaching out is very difficult for you, but you've made a start by posting here. A possible next step is calling or texting a Help line - they should be able to give you useful information.

You need to talk with people who take you seriously, people who care and know that mental illness is serious, even deadly. Try to do something before you sink deeper.

Unfortunately many people (and sufferers, too!) still believe that mental illness is something that just requires a little willpower to brush off. It maybe worth trying to educate those around you about the nature of the illness, I know that in the past I was quite uninformed about mental health.

All the best

[Braem]

I understand, and I too am trying to figure out how to crawl out of this deep depression. Each day, I try to go on and pretend that I am doing all right when all I want to do is cry. But I fear if I start to cry I will never stop or the depression will get worse. It is hard when you see everyone around you getting the nice house or going on beautiful vacations. I feel like I struggle, but I can never get any further in my life. To survive I am trying to make very small changes. I joined a small gym so I can try to at least feel better about the way I look and find some energy. With my depression, I just want to sleep. Thanks for sharing your story.

[Mrspjsmom]

Don't suffer in silence anymore. Find a doctor to help. Also keep posting here. There are people here who understand feeling depressed and anxious. HUGS and BLESSINGS!