My support system is so terrible:(

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Hi guys I’m sat here carrying right now because I’m just so low and see no hope. I don’t understand why all these bad things happen to me then I feel bad because I feel like I’m acting like the world is against me when I’m not so I feel bad for complaining. Basically what had triggered this is that due to having health anxiety and panic disorder and depression I left my job over a year ago and signed onto universal credit finding a job has been difficult and I take responsibility for my failings in the sense of bailing on interviews due to the anxiety etc. But I recently got a paid a very low amount and my brother is less than helpful and only thinks of himself he’s given me money in the past so he views that as this massive example of how I wonderful he is to me even though I did the same for him and ever asked for it back which he persistently does. I feel awful about myself for being unemployed I feel awful about being on universal credit ( I know I shouldn’t) I feel awful about everything about who I am

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

Additionally when my brother got an injury I was there for him whenever he needed it however he never really returns the favour and treats me like I’m disposable