Message in a bottle

Hi,

First I want to send love to anyone and everyone here. I've been struggling with depression and anxiety my entire life, and I know exactly how most of you feel. I think one of the worst parts of this condition is feeling tired of that stupid loop of recordings that play in my head most of the time. I think society feeds us information that scares us and says it's not ok to talk about it because we're grown-ups, then gives people drugs to numb them instead of allowing them to acknowledge their feelings. I can't be one of the medicated people because I get severe side effects from those mood-altering drugs. So I just go to therapy once a week and talk about stuff that gets to me, but that's not enough. I love my therapist and I wish I had met her as a friend. She's a good person, she gets me, and I need that because I have not one true friend. It's like I'm on a deserted island and this is my message in a bottle. My 15-year relationship is as deep as a puddle. I feel like I'm surrounded by people who are WAY more off their rockers than I am, so I prefer to stay alone, binge watch NetFlix, drink and eat icecream. There are a couple of things I do, however, that make me feel better. I take the time to deliberately list things I am grateful for and make a point to hold that feeling in my heart. Having a roof over my head, a few dollars in the bank (and I MEAN a few lol), indoor plumbing, electricity, clean running water, a washer-dryer, two loving daughters, netflix and icecream So, if you read this to the end and think we can be friends, just say hello. Good luck to you every day, and hang in there. Miracles do happen <3

[Hidden]

Hello AuthorUnknown. Thank you for thinking of us all here. It was a lovely message. I am sorry you suffer with depression. Your idea of watching netflix is a great one. I think distraction really helps. I can relate to the soothing feeling of eating something tasty, with me it is cake or cookies. It is great you get on with your therapist. That makes the therapy so much better. I hope you have a great day.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hi Autumn,

Thank you for replying. I didn't expect anyone to reach out and it was great to see that someone had! I love food, so NOT a good thing you know, living to eat instead of eating to live. I'd love to get more excited about carrots than ice cream, but in the meantime, se la vie! I try not to buy a lot of things that are "bad" but then I get mad 'cause there's nothing good to snack on! lol Hope to see you post sometime again. Have a good night

[Kainan]

Hi. Welcome to our little group on here. You'll find a lot of supportive and caring people here who might be going through similar issues as you are. So, you are certainly not alone.

I definitely agree with you that health, particularly mental health issues should be talked about more. It's often due to the stigma of it that people don't speak up or seek help when in fact they are facing intense personal suffering and isolation.

My personal experience with medicine is that often times it does take the edges off, but one may have to go through a few, or even several, different medications to find the one that works best and can tolerate the side effects, if any.

It sounds like you have some good coping skills on hand. I'm glad you're with us, and I hope you continue to share and post and find it helpful

[Hidden in reply to Kainan]

Hello Kainan,

Thank you for the support I really appreciate it. I have journaled for many years but it's so different when the book answers you! lol I really don't like the idea of medication, but I tried it because I let myself get to such a bad point before getting help, that I was very close to a manic break. It's strange though I sort of allowed myself to imagine breaking everything in the kitchen to release my anger, and that was what actually helped me keep it together. I know I'm just scratching the surface of knowing, and helping myself and I'm glad I stopped in here. Have a great night, and thanks again.

[Kainan in reply to Hidden]

Yeah, keep posting, sharing, and learning everything you can. You're doing great. I'm glad you're with us

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Hello! What’s your current binge?

I don’t drink but I’ll race you to the ice cream🤣!

I’m a lifelong sufferer of depression. My kids are great too.

I’m glad you posted.

Doaty💛

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Hi Neu,

Thank you for typing Girl I don't even know where to start I've seen so many shows, but I love syfy most of all. Aliens, monsters, Aliens vs Monsters lol Animated, Thrillers, so many movies so little productivity while watching Prime and Netflix are coming up with some really creative series. I hope we get to compare. Have a great night and thank you.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Hidden]

I love apocalypse movies! I like psych thrillers too. There should always be an Alien, a Predator or an unknown Baldwin brother. 😆 I try to look productive by crocheting.

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Ohhh I don't know about end of the world stuff though world war z was good, and remake of war of the worlds good too! I just saw a series on netflix called Raising Dion. Only 9 episodes but really good! Jason Ritter is in it and I was super shocked at a twist in it which RARELY happens with me. I crochet a bit and taught myself to knit. Comes in handy with the weather change. I made a slouch hat last year it was very thick and super slouchy kind of odd looking but that's me! lol Have a great one Neu

Hugs! AU

[Masom]

Hello and your so right in all that you've said there stay strong

[Hidden in reply to Masom]

Hi Masom,

Thank you for writing. I'm here for you and the others too, just so you know. Sending good vibrations your way

[Masom in reply to Hidden]

Thank you

[Trueblonde77]

Hello I’m new here . I know exactly how you feel I’m on same page I have always been a happy person all my life and about a month ago now I feel different I used to love to sing and nothing I love to do I don’t want to do it anymore . I’m always a happy upbeat person but here lately I can’t get out of this mood I’m in its terrible all my family try to make me laugh and I just cry I don’t know what’s wrong . I don’t take any medicine I have side effects from them so I don’t know anymore I just pray I get better I don’t like this . I hope you have a wonderful day and just keep your head up .

[Hidden in reply to Trueblonde77]

Hello True,

Thank you for reaching out. I'm a blonde too but mine is clairol 12NG (I think lol) They say some of the most happy looking people are the ones that are the most depressed. There are so many examples, like Robbin Williams. He said he loved to make people laugh because he didn't want them to feel the way he did. The man was brilliant, but broken. I think that's everyone to some extent. Someone once said "we're all f**kd up in our own little way" and smiled. Totally us! Working through the ebbs and flows sucks sometimes. Really, really sucks, but I think being heard makes it better. Have a great one and thanks again.

[Michael8072]

Hi AuthorUnknown

Thank you for sharing you with us! Being grateful has certainly changed how I’ve been feeling in my life. Also finding ways to cope with my feelings and allowing them to be has been amazing for me. Going with how I’m feeling and not being ashamed or fighting those feelings. I felt alone for such a long time and having a support system now has just added to my life.

So really thank you for sharing and continue to share. Good luck to you as well!!

[Hidden in reply to Michael8072]

Hello Michael,

Thank you for replying. You know I feel a little like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, like when she say's "I'll miss you most of all" to the scarecrow? I love the support I got from everyone who read my post, but I was most excited about you're response and what I would write back. It has been a long journey for me with something I hated to admit. I refused to label myself as being mentally ill, especially with some of the stories I get from other people and their crazy lives. But, I got so sick because of a lifetime of events that tormented me, and things that happened within the last year and a half, that I was really afraid for myself, and my girls. What would they do if I just mentally checked out, right? But, anyway yes I practice gratitude, I pray (even though I'm not really great at it myself) I light candles and ask for blessings, and I try my best to think of myself (and others) with kindness and compassion. I've followed several self-help people, but only now am I truly starting to understand what I am going through, and what is working for me. I accept that this is part of who I am, and I welcome the joy I get from maybe making friends. I'm glad that you and the others reached out because it's made today so much better for me, and I'm SO grateful for that. Peace and love and thanks

[Michael8072 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your reply! I’m so happy to hear that this has made your day better!! It’s amazing what things can happen by just reaching out! I’m grateful for your response! I hope things continue to get better for you! And anytime you need to reach out I’m here!! Sending hugs and good thoughts!!

[Jenyleigh]

I really like this place. I had a great day and a horrible evening! It's wonderful to read all the hope here. Thank you everyone for opening up and letting us all know we're ok!

[Hidden]

Hi Jeny,

Thank you for writing. Right? I like it too. I wasn't sure what to expect, probably nothing really. Like looking at my words and hearing crickets lol I got a great lift though and I'm smiling as I'm typing back. I have to say though I have to go back and read the rules because I can be a real potty keyboard. See when someone gets me really mad, or when my girls are upset we say they can go "suck'a bag'o (rhymes with chicks)" I even taught my mom to say it and she'd crack me up. Don't let them get you down Jen tell them to suck a bag'o!

Have a great night and thanks