I have been struggling with anxiety and ongoing fear; mainly around the fact that I’m terrified something is going to happen to my kids. Seemingly “unrealistic” thoughts, though they seem very probable to me (school shootings, a car accident, etc).
I recently started seeing a Psychiatrist. I’ve described how often these thoughts become so intrusive on great days (awesome time with my kids, great day at work, etc). I then feel like things are “too good”, and I sit thinking of all the tragic things that can (and in my mind will) happen. I then try to self-sabotage my own happiness in a way. I’ll take minor things that would make me a little happy (have a glass of wine after dinner, listen to music, etc) and not let myself do them bc I think by doing them, I’ll be making things too good and then something horrible is bound to happen. My Psychiatrist called this “Magic thinking”. Does anyone have any experience with it? Or any tips I can try to stop it? Thanks in advance.