Just Thinking

[IloveMary]

I was just thinking if any one ever feels like it will never end with the sadness and feeling like you no good and you will never feel good? I just don't understand I have kids that I love with all my I have a great job I work in a school I just love all my kids I have in my class they are the best reason I go to work everyday but I have not been in work since Dec 10,2018 I just wish I could go back and be happy again and want to get up out of bed my last kids is my baby he is 8 months old I should be having fun with him I just take good care of him like a mom should and that is it I do give him and all my kids hugs and kisses all the time...So this is the part I don't understand why I feel like it will never end when you read this you are thinking >>>>What the hell is she got to be sad about she is talking about all good things...>>>But that is how I have been feeling so I just want to ask if any one feels like that...

[Crich1982]

I know exactly what you mean. I work in education and have a daughter who is my whole world. My job isn’t hard, and she is a fantastic kid who loves making me proud. Just when I start beating myself up over these things not “being enough” I have to remind myself that how I feel is a chemical imbalance that I have little to no control over. I love my daughter and my life, but my depression and anxiety couldn’t care less. Hang in there, we’re in this together.

[IloveMary in reply to Crich1982]

Thank you for the kind words

[Sky2016]

I have been there. I have a new granddaughter and she does fill some of the void in my heart. But at times I feel like it’s not enough. I lost my granddaughter in 2017 and that was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. I lost my job in 2017 and it’s been down hill from there. I have an abusive husband and not only is he mean and cruel. But can be vindictive. What I tell my daughter is if love is not for me in this’s life. I know it will be in the next life. I always ask myself why can he love me and respect me. But it’s not in his nature. And there will never be any way to change that person. So I have learn to love me. I am beautiful and strong is what I tell myself all the time.

[IloveMary in reply to Sky2016]

wow that is not nice how he treats you he should be nice I wish you peace

[Hidden]

Are you suffering with post natal depression ? I hope your ok and your not alone x

[IloveMary in reply to Hidden]

I am sorry but I don't know what it is and yes I am

[Hidden]

I felt the same with my baby years ago, I just felt detached from my body, detached from the world and exhausted, I used to feel like I didn't care if I died in my sleep, I used to feel so guilty for the way I felt, which made things worse, but I snapped out of it eventually, I hope your recieving the help you need and I wish you a fast recovery x

[IloveMary in reply to Hidden]

looking for help and thank you

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