It's Okay To Feel Bad

[JEG325]

So, I was cruising along last night and I suddenly had a mild anxiety attack, then awhile later the Hypokalemia hit again but, only mildly. However my emotions went into overload immediately!

My super friends, Lilyannepuppy & Dolphin14 + my best friend, Krn210 sat up with me from 5:30am to 9:30am and helped me get through it.

As I began to slowly come out of it, I realized I was looking at the whole thing in error....I try so hard to not feel bad, to not give in when I do, that I probably only make it worse!

I realized that it's okay to feel bad, to let myself experience the super bad feelings and to be kind to myself while I do. I can ride out the storm, find the rainbow on the other side and be safe once more.

Lilyannepuppy pretty much said that but, I wasn't hearing it. I was too busy struggling! From now on, I won't feel ashamed when I have one of those attacks, I will start going into my recovery procedures right away, get help from my friends and then emerge safely out the other side of the storm.

If you're out there today and you're not feeling good, treat yourself nice, reach out to someone for help and do whatever you need to in order to recover. I'll meet you in the bright sunshine on the far side of the storm!

[Starrlight]

Yes it’s ok to feel bad.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

That little epiphany stunned me my awesome friend!!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

I’m glad you had your epiphany awesome you! You can still do awesome things while feeling bad.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

Yes, you can. I wrote 4 poems while I was feeling bad. You tried to teach me that I could go on and do things while feeling bad. Last night I learned that lesson first hand!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Good job!!!

[Hidden]

I hope you are feeling better now. We all have those moments of despair. They do pass in time. "without suffering there is no joy, without joy there is no suffering". We learn to appreciate the times we feel happy and life is good

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

That's true. I always liked my periods of calmness and levelness. I liked not having to struggle. Last night I even cried some. But, maybe I needed that. Sometimes crying releases pent up emotions and is actually cathartic. Thanks for being my friend, M! You know, I wrote 2 more poems and started a 3rd one since I talked to you yesterday. I put 5 poems out there in 2 days and will probably finish the 6th one today. You kind of rewoke the writer in me too!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

You inspired me too. I need a new topic BTW. 😜

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

I had 2 I was going to write about. On the other side of the storm- referring to those periods of sunny, calm times you have when you emerge out the other side of the storm for awhile & Find your own rainbow- about looking for the good in life where possible. I hope that helps....

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Good topics.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

You gonna write on one of them? (That's a challenge!)lol

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Ill take other side of the storm.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

That's my fav as well. I probably won't write until later. I'm still in my bed right now....

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

I might wait til the weekend. Too stressed in the week. 😕

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah, my sweetie has claimed my attention + food & vitamins. Thanks for being my friend, M!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Your welcome. I'm glad to have a new friend with a similar passion.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

Me too!

[kenster1]

hi jeg how are you feeling now better I hope.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

So, so....Life is like that sometimes, k. It's the things you never thought would happen, that rise up and smack you. I will never probably ever be the same again now....But, it just means that a different me will rise up to replace the weaker emotionally hurt and wounded me.

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

still the same jeg just doing things a bit different will ever only be one of you so best to enjoy it.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

I tell people that all the time....That we are unique and rare, a precious and valuable commodity.

This me is still upset and may never feel completely safe emotionally ever again. But, I will learn to deal with it. I always do...

Hope you're doing good, my friend....

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

doing ok eating my bowl of shreddies before bed.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

I usually eat peanut butter and jelly but, I have a similar routine. I usually eat and then my night time vitamins/herbal sleeping pill and head off to sleep.

I'm actually just now getting up....irony, I guess....

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

two things I don't like loved jelly when I was young.did your team win last night then.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

Yep. 34 to 30. They are 4-0 now. The rest of my picks did terrible. You know there's 12 more weeks of picks and the playoffs. But, I've lost much of my drive to enjoy what was always my favorite guilty pleasure. I always loved NFL football. A shame really. But, this me just no longer feels quite the same.....

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

hopefully you get your love for the game back always important to take in the things we enjoy.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

Agreed. Even my sweetie thinks I need some football as a despite from life and helping people here on H/U. I want to enjoy it still but feel 3 days a week is excessive in my life right now....Hope you sleep well, k. Talking to you is very settling to me. Thanks....

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

tell sue your taking a ball to bed tonight glad to hear its helping.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

Krn210 sometimes just let's me talk until I get everything out if me. Whether I say what's bothering me or not, eventually I run out of words and just calm down....

[kenster1 in reply to JEG325]

yeah that's the way to do it and if you had to go to bed you could always write down your thoughts.

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

I write it in poem form. You should read, 'Little Lost Lamb'. I wrote out a lot of hurt there.

[Krn210]

It is ok to feel our emotions, you are right! I hope you are feeling better!

[JEG325 in reply to Krn210]

Only so/so. I think a part of me disappeared last night- vanished, if you will. I'll just have to learn to live with the rest of me....