Bad case of depression and not sure where to turn

[Indiegal]

I've had a lot of stress over the last couple months and one big source of my stress ended a little over a month ago. But since then I've been feeling more and more depressed every day and less motivated. It's like I crashed from all the stress and anxiety and now it's turned into depression. I own my own business and I'm really slacking on getting work done for my clients because I'm not motivated to work. But I need to figure things out or I'm gonna lose my clients.

I haven't been on medication for years and was doing good to ok since. But lately my depression and anxiety has gotten bad and I'm starting to think maybe I need them again. I really didn't like taking them and had a really bad withdrawal from the last meds, which I told myself I'd never take meds again because of. I also don't want to have to rely on meds. But I don't know what else to do. And I've sort of exhausted my local therapy options since they are pretty limited with my crappy insurance (in the US). And I don't have the money right now to pay for more expensive online therapy that doesn't take insurance. So I'm feeling pretty stuck on what to do.

I've tried pushing myself to do social things to help me get out of my head and have some fun, but I feel even worse when I've tried to get out there and meet people. I don't have any real friends, my family makes me feel like crap when I'm with them, and I haven't dated anyone in years. I tried to put myself out there with a few guys lately and feel like a fool that they kind of blew me off. I'm dreading going through the holidays like this and need something to help me get over my sh** and get work done so I can afford things like therapy.

Any advice or options for affordable therapy in the US? Or just anyone going through something similar you can relate to?

[Celtic27]

Hi there sorry to hear your having a hard time with depression and anxiety first off go to your doctor and explain to them whats happening to you it might be worth going onto a mild medication to see how things go with that also what about councilling which may help you ! Regards theraphy have you tried on line places that do councilling ! I wish you all the best 😊

[Indiegal in reply to Celtic27]

Thanks for your reply. I had tried BetterHelp but they are pretty expensive and I can't really afford it right now. I looked at other services and they are either more expensive or the same price for only texting or short sessions. My copay is $40 but all my local options are terrible places with bad reviews and/or where I had a terrible experience myself. If you have any affordable online therapy recommendations, let me know.

A doctor visit with my regular doctor would cost me $80 unless I wait till my physical in mid-December. And I don't know if she'll prescribe me anything or refer me to a psychiatrist that I'd have to wait a long time to get in and pay another $80. I was trying to hold out since it'll probably be several weeks before I can get in anyway. But that seems so long off with how I'm feeling. I hate our healthcare system!

[grey777 in reply to Indiegal]

I got this website through contacting a crisis line for therapy advice support! They’re a 24/7 resource available to help. Also journaling tends to help me get to the bottom of things, if these don’t work for you no pressure! I wish you well, and hope that it might help as it did me!

[grey777 in reply to grey777]

In anyway this helped me hearing what you wrote and I can relate.

If you’re interested here is that linkcrisistextline.org/

[Indiegal in reply to grey777]

Thank you! I will check that site out. And thanks for sharing that you can relate. Sometimes not feeling like I'm the only one going through something helps. As does knowing I may have helped someone else.

[kbrauer]

Good afternoon,

Yes, you do not want to lose your clients!

Have you thought about talking to a local nondenominational pastor? A local Community Church? And see if he might be able to get you going in a good direction? Another good place to look for help is focusonthefamily.org. Go to get help and click on that then you can go to their link and look at what they have to offer or you can call a counselor. They have wonderful help + it is free! I have used them before!

[Indiegal in reply to kbrauer]

Thanks for the thought, but I'm not interested in any religious counseling.

[kbrauer in reply to Indiegal]

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