All day I'm aware of the problems I face, the mountains that stand before me that I must climb and I'm relatively ok. However right when I'm trying to get to sleep its as if all the negative thoughts, fear, and mistakes I had been suppressing come spilling out and my heart starts racing. It takes me 2 to 3 hours to get to sleep sometimes. Ill even fall asleep for a minute or two and suddenly wake up with a heart rate as if I had been sprinting.
Some nights I only get 2 - 3 hours of sleep for a few days in a row. This eventually catches up with me and ill go to sleep right when I get home from work with out even eating dinner.
I know this is a form of anxiety. I drink Chamomile before bed to help. Id rather these insecurity's surface during the day time so I can address them or at least work on them. If it only hits me at night, the day is already done and losing sleep is not helping me overcome the challenges the next day.