Messy mind

[Pastelpurple]

I wanna lay down and cry all night, I feel so insecure n fat, I was getting fit but I fell into my depression n gained 10 pounds and I get anxious being in the gym and end up leaving. I’m trying but it’s so hard.

[Hidden]

For a start look in the mirror and see the gorgeous, voluptuous, womanly woman you are and go from there.

Well done for getting to the gym! Do you have a timed programme to follow? If not you could ask the staff to work one out with you. That might get you started again.

Feeling so down is rough and sometimes it feels like things will never be right again.

Life ebbs and flows.

I see that others here have suggested a visit to the Doctor who will assess your depression and possibly put you on a course of anti depressants. Did you get an appointment? It really does help. He/she might recommend talking therapy. That helps too.

I was 19 once and used to fill the void inside me with food. Pastelpurple, you’ll figure it out one day at a time.

I wish you well.

[Pastelpurple in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much, and I haven’t set up my appointment, I hesitate fir some reason, I really do appreciate ur response, I’ll take ur tips and try them out

[Red_Ruby1981]

Everything is going to be okay. ❤️ So you gained 10lbs, that is ok. Did you know that our bodies fluctuate about 10lbs through the week depending on how much water we drink or if we are going to be getting our monthly gift. Plus that 10lbs could have just been water weight, especially if you were eating foods high in sodium. I’d say if your gym is open 24hrs then ask them what times have low traffic and start there until you feel more comfortable. The most important thing to know is to love yourself no matter what the number on the scale says. And as always, you have all of us on here to talk to if you need to. You can always message me as well. I too am trying to lose weight and feel your frustration.

[Pastelpurple in reply to Red_Ruby1981]

Thank you, you’re welcome to message me anytime for support !

[Hidden]

As I get older I can relate to keeping my weight down. Some of the meds I took in the past made me blow up like a balloon. Even worse they made me very sedentary. A positive self image is hard to imagine when you look at your self while depressed. It is the worse.

Still you try not to dwell on those things. Instead you take very small baby steps. Just a little each day. Start with a walk around the block and the next day two blocks then the next day three blocks then you rest the next day. Then repeat. Continue that for two weeks. In the third week increase it some more through the fourth week. Over time slowly but surely you build up. Oh and don't compare yourself with others just focus on what you want. It's the little steps that lead you to larger ones much much later. If motivation is a problem find someone to do it with you. I'll bet you'll find others that would love to take this journey with you. Another good motivator, positive affirmations about not giving up. You can find tons of them online. Copy the text and place them as signs you can read every day to remind yourself why you are doing this.

This is how got started. Plus someone willing to do it with me to keep me honest. Depression sucks, but the walks could change to jogs after 2 months or even one month. The transition will come to you.

This advice aside. Gyms are ok but you don't necessarily need them to get fit. I do this stuff at home and rarely used my gyms except for the pool. Another bit of advice, let your doctor know if your medication are affecting your weight. They may find one that you can take that may curve your appetite instead of increase it. Cymbalta is one I take now because other medications blew me up.

Lastly, You should always know you are beautiful!. You should say it to yourself over and over until you believe it as much as your supporters on this web site believe it too. My self included and I don't need to know what you look like to know it's true.

[SuZQ154]

So glad you are here. Your honesty and willingness to post are signs that you want to get better. Have you been seeing a counselor? Sometimes are eating is rooted in deep emotions from the past. We have to understand our triggers. You might want to check out this book "Made to Crave". bit.ly/32u0fZN It describes how eating is our substitute for loneliness and dealing with our anger, frustration, and hurt. It also give practical, wise, Godly suggestions on how to change our thinking to change our behaviors. Hope this helps and please keep posting. Blessings!