Learning

[Sodown]

Only just learnt the reason I feel shit constant is because my adrenaline is constant going. And obviously when all I think of is negative think I get the physy symptoms do it's like a never ending cycle. Because I cant think posiy there's nothing posio to think about tbh. So I'm stuck. I can't be like this for much longer a don't no how I mange to raise my head on a morning as I have no energy what so ever I'm like an old woman haggered. Constant scared of everything even cleaning is boring me and that's all I do to keep busy. When family come I act strange I can't stand or sit and talk to them. I'm always moving about because I'm scared incase I collapse Infront of them or something is going to happen. That is my fear so that's what's stoppy me going out but less of that I have no motivation or concentration to do anything x