Hi guys as you know if you’ve read any of my previous posts I’ve been dealing with generalised anxiety disorder and health anxiety as well as panic disorder for over a year now but these past few months/ weeks make me feel like I’m never going to shake this. Let me explain
1.) I feel that my long term unemployment has had an irreversible impact on my mind.
2.) The contamination anxiety is really becoming a problem as well as the irrational beliefs e.g ( my TV is making me feel unwell because it’s unlucky) and not eating things I touched with my hands.
3.) My inability to deal with day to day stresses for example being left too cool for myself or left a lone all day. Getting a cold. Not feeling like eating or just general day to ya aches and pains nobody pays attention to become major life threatening concerns.
4.)if I smell anything I don’t like I believe it’s poising or making me unwell in some way
5.) My incredibly low self esteem and motivation. Thinking I haven’t got the personality to become a comedian as well as the talent/ motivation and thinking my illness is going to cripple me for life and it’s going to be an endless cycle of therapy getting better then getting worse and refusing to take meds
Just don’t know what do or think or say anymore despite vast improvements I still feel a way off