Kind of embarrassed to admit this but...

[imasleep123]

I’m not eating or drinking any fluids because I am avoiding getting out of bed. My anxiety is intense today. I told myself as a treat for completing my chores. I could go out for the day and get a few things I wanted from the store. All my chores are outside of my bedroom. This leads me to believe I’m avoiding leaving my bed because I’m avoiding my chores and I’m avoiding my chores because I’m avoiding going outside. And I’m avoiding going outside because... human contact....

I over compensated for this avoidance by agreeing to go with my sister to the store, I can’t be avoiding people if I go out with my sister right? Going out in public only with a person who is safe....

At least I am gaining a better understanding of how anxiety affects me. 🤔

[CatIsMyCopilot]

I think the type of analysis you're doing is good. I do it for myself, too. I try to stop myself when I'm anxious and list out why I'm feeling what I'm feeling (e.g. "Worrying about X, made me then worry about Y"), and what behaviors it's motivating me to do (e.g. "It made me want to seek reassurance" or "It made me try to distract myself"). After I've done this, I usually feel a bit calmer.

Now that you understand a bit better why you're afraid to get out of bed, does it make that less scary?

[imasleep123 in reply to CatIsMyCopilot]

Hmmm I think have gotten to that point before, but not yet in this case, I kind of just stopped exploring those feelings. Maybe I’m not ready to face them yet? 🤔

[CatIsMyCopilot in reply to imasleep123]

That's totally fine too. Another thing I'm finding helpful is to be more self-compassionate i.e. not beat myself up for having anxiety.

As you said, at least you gained understanding.

[gleason9guy]

This would be correct. I have a friend like this and he is even happier this way now that he has discovered some grocery stores will deliver his stuff to his house.