Feeling some kind of way

[Bluetj]

Just joined in hope of finding real support. Feeling some kind of way right now, can't seem to function. Just wish this would go away forever 😭

[EleanorRose]

Hey Bluetj,

Sounds like you’re having a really tough time. What’s going on in your life at the moment?

[Bluetj in reply to EleanorRose]

Thx for responding. I have nothing to complain about in my life. I live where I have always wanted, I have a wonderful job, two wonderful sons (one is incarcerated, but I have accepted), my life is wonderful. My spiritual life sucks, but I'm working on that. I really just don't understand.

[EleanorRose in reply to Bluetj]

There doesn’t always have to be a reason. Often our lives can exacerbate problems but don’t have to be the cause. In some ways, feeling like our lives aren’t ‘bad’ can make things feel worse - an added sense of guilt that we shouldn’t feel this way.

Do you know what it is you’ve been feeling? Anxiety? Low mood? Something else?

It’s not always easy to pinpoint how we feel, we just know we don’t feel quite right.

[Bluetj in reply to EleanorRose]

People always say its anxiety when I have bad moments, but I don't feel anxious about anything. The thing that makes me feel bad is when I have these moments & don't understand. Like now with this 'feeling some sort of way'

[EleanorRose in reply to Bluetj]

Anxiety can be complicated and there are so many different types of anxiety.

You don't need to know exactly how you feel and that is ok too. It's difficult enough to experience these uncertain feelings without feeling bad about it. I can't always explain exactly how I feel either and I am sure there are others here who have felt the same. You just know you don't quite feel like yourself. Have you felt this way for long?

[Bluetj in reply to EleanorRose]

This has lasted a while. I have been to the dr several times, have been to a heart specialist, I have even been to ER & of course they say everything is fine. I have been experiencing heartburn for months as well as indigestion, but always forget to mention to drs. I've taken all sorts of antacids nothing helps. Is it just me or is it the norm to feel crazy?

[EleanorRose in reply to Bluetj]

I’ve heard it said lots of times that most people with anxiety fear they are going crazy at some point. Whenever I’ve felt like I am going ‘mad’ (tends to be how I describe it rather than crazy), I always think “No, I REALLY am going mad” - almost like in the midst of it, it feels like no one else understands what I am saying. However, I’m yet to completely lose my mind, though it feels like it sometimes. Anxiety can get really bad and often you know your fears aren’t rational but that doesn’t stop the worrying. You can fear the worst but you won’t go ‘crazy’.

[joibronxen in reply to EleanorRose]

I've felt like I'm losing my mind many times in the midst of severe anxiety. I also relate to the guilt of feeling this way when so many people in the world have "real" problems...but, blessed as we are, our problems are most certainly real and they matter! My basic feeling from day to day is just that "existing is exhausting"...and it really is.

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome to the site...you'll get the support you need here and all understand.... so do you know what it is you're feeling? I wish for you nothing but the best and along with that peace of mind...

May you have a beautiful day...

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy and groovy hugs!

[Bluetj in reply to Hidden]

Thx so much for the truck load of love, peace, light, joy & the hugs. I feel alone & confused. I don't have any friends where I live. I just don't know what to do. 😢

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I have a depression anxiety disorder which takes over often on its own. I have so much to be grateful for but can’t see it when I’m in the black hole. All I see is my own sadness and fear. It’s an internal thing, and in my case, a brain chemical imbalance. Of course that doesn’t stop me from beating myself up with the idea I SHOULD BE ABLE TO FIX IT. But it’s like trying to make all myself out of diabetes, diarrhea, etc. keep posting. The people here are caring and knowledgeable

[Bluetj in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I, too, have been told about having a chemical, but what is that? How did it come about? I've even said it doesn't make sense & its what they are just saying. I just can't except none if this, its really hard.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Bluetj]

You’ll have to ask someone smarter than me about body and brain chemicals. I just know they’re there. For instance, when I’m under stress one of the chemicals produced is cortisol. Look it up. Also some acceptance of your condition will help you. Just because you don’t think it makes sense doesn’t mean it isn’t true. Keep looking for help. Keep an open mind. Keep posting- you’ll learn a lot here.

[joibronxen]

Welcome. I'm new here too. I also don't have any local friends to really talk to. My one good friend lives in another state, and I feel like I can't keep dumping this load on her, as it can be quite a lot and very heavy! I'm also quite blessed and feel guilty at times. I should be cheerful and laughing and loving everything around me. But I am stuck in this place where my those feelings just can't reach me. You're not alone- hopefully we can deal together.