Need to vent...

[imasleep123]

I’m like the stress expert in my family.

Okay seriously though, like I’ve had some pretty severe panic disorder. I’m talking running down the street screaming, jumping out of moving vehicles, running around the neighborhood at 2-3am in the morning trying to hide from god knows what because I’m only experiencing pure terror, daily multiple panic-attacks for 7 years straight, trying to jump of balconies and bridges to escape, chronic insomnia, agoraphobia, social anxiety, hyperventilation, okay I can go on but you probably know what I’m talking about if you’ve ever experienced panic disorder And from what my doctors have told me, mine was a bit more severe then what is typical even though any form of panic disorder is consider severe.

Not trying to gloat here.. it was hell and I don’t wish it upon anyone and I NEVER want go back.

I’m trying to make a point though. I paid my dues, I did my therapy and I worked hard to overcome my panic attacks and haven’t had any for 4 years and going. I consider myself very fortunate to not experience panic attacks anymore.

The thing is, you all on here don’t know that about me, you just learned that stuff now. And everyone has different experiences and it’s hard to say what will help any person get better.

My family on the other hand, they know this stuff about me. they’ve been there and they’ve seen it with their own eyes. They know what I’ve been through. And they know that even though the panic attacks have been kept at bay, I still struggle with anxiety and depression. And I’m always on the look out for symptoms or signs that I may have slipped in my treatment and trying for the stay on top of my symptoms.

Anyway, To my point: I seem to be the one EVERY one comes to for advice with dealing with stress.

And they ask for advice too, I’m not just giving it out. They ask for it but it’s like they don’t listen, because they keep coming back and asking for the same advice over and over again and I’m like “didn’t something like this JUST happen yesterday?” And I’m like “hey take time to relax because if you don’t you end up like me that’s what chronic high intensity stress looks like don’t you remember?” You gotta break up the behavior with something relaxing otherwise you’re just reinforcing the pattern of stress.

And I repeat this advice over and over and over again, and still nothing. when I’m the one who needs reminding all I get is crickets. Everyone just shuts up because they’re like “oh she’s just being crazy again better stop talking.”

Sigh. If you read this far I appreciate it, I’m mostly just venting. 😑y

[imasleep123]

I hope it was clear that I’m frustrated because my family thinks both that I’m wise on stress and that I’m utterly insane because of my experiences. They both ask for my wisdom and ignore everything I say on the subject. It’s quite frustrating.

[NoRegret in reply to imasleep123]

Rather an oxymoron that must be very frustrating.

My panic attacks are triggered by Social Anxiety,

I understand reacting to perceived fear with pure terror.

It is so awesome that you have overcome panic attacks.