I'm Lost and Completely Alone

[Spider-Man98]

I moved to Kansas in June and I don't have any local friends. I'm alone for most of the time, I don't get out most of the time and when I do get out I have panic attacks because I'm afraid I'm going to get sucked into the sky. Most of the shows I watch have ended or are ending this year so I'm depressed about that. I used to watch horror movies, I don't anymore because its almost like every single thing that's in a movie or a video on YouTube scares and or startles me. It seems like everything I used to enjoy doing I don't enjoy doing anymore. I took a good long look at my past life and realized that I made a lot of mistakes, I hurt a lot of peoples feelings and I would like to go back in time and change things but I can't. So I'm just alone sad, depressed and anxious most of the time, not exactly the best combo. I try to change but every time I take one step forward I end up taking two steps back. I'm lost and don't know what to do What do I do?

[sadskies00]

I totally understand what you’re saying. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of different stressful situations all at once. I’m sorry you’re going through what you’re going through. You aren’t alone in that. I’d say the first thing you should do is forgive yourself for past mistakes because you can’t change them. But you can change how you move forward today. We’re all imperfect and we all make many mistakes. Maybe you should try to connect with people in your new area and that could help you get out there and become acclimated to your new surroundings. Take it one day at a time. I hope things get better.

[Luckystay]

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through such a bad time. I, and many other people, have felt, or feel the same pain, you're NOT alone. Everybody makes mistakes and has regrets, we all treat people badly at times. You need to forgive yourself, though I know that is not easy and you need some help to do that. Please see your doctor and get some counselling - there's nothing that will help you more than this when you're going through hard times. Being able to talk about the way you feel and past mistakes can help you to feel better about yourself and your life and find a way forward. Good luck and best wishes to you, I hope you will find happiness because you deserve to.

[SirGrits]

Hey spider-man, I agree with the others that forgiving yourself is a great thing to attempt. I struggle with this mightily. Counseling and therapy are also great ideas. Having a pro explain the processes behind what you're going through will only help. You are not alone friend. You're human, like the rest of us. Cut yourself some slack.

[Sprinkle1]

My heart goes out to you, You sound depressed and in need of an antidepressant, have you found a Dr. in your new location? I would get a Dr. and talk to her/him, ask for help. Look for a support group. Believe in yourself, forgive yourself for your past mistakes, they are in the past and best forgotten, we all grow by making mistakes. Love yourself and be kind to yourself, write to us and we will be your friends, sending love n hugs, Sprinkle 1 xxx ooo