Self soothing isnt working

[dbeck128]

I cant convince myself I won't die tonight but this crap is on my neck and it's so close to my brain you know? I haven't gotten an MRI done yet. I feel like I need one. Why is it swelling still if nothing is wrong? I cant get still. I am hyper focusing on everything in my body. Especially the lump and swelling in my neck. How do I know my throat wont close in? I dont. So it might. This is torture. I NEED answers. Help me someone. How do I stop these horrible thoughts? I was doing great for a day or so and I'm back to square one of course. I'm a failure.

[Hidden]

It’s alright, probably that health anxiety again. Odds are your throat isn’t closing up, the times I’ve had lymphnode trouble it never has. And you’re not a failure, like you said you need answers and you keep trying. Failures dont look for answers, and keep trying like you are. Do your best to stay strong and keep going, You can do this!

[dbeck128 in reply to Hidden]

What did your lymph node troubles feel like?

[Hidden in reply to dbeck128]

Mostly stiffness and swelling, sometimes I feel like it can cause a headache. It would happen to me alot when I was a kid so I kind of got used to them flaring up.

[vp_tx210]

I might have the same thing. My throat/ neck has been hurting on and off... I’ve tried to still ignore it, doesn’t help. But I have moments where I’m not paying attention or too busy, and it stops hurting... still gonna go to the doc soon and check. But I’m so scared it’s gonna be something else 😔 hang in there. Emotions can really control if we let it