I hate how life work and some people think..

[Midnightwolf1]

So today sucked. I go to school and the first thing I hear is something about a shooting nearby. I had a bad feeling in my stomach but didn't think anything of it till my cousins' dad texts me asking me if I'm ok. I said 'yea why' only to get back after a few messages back and forth that the shooting was at my uncle's house and he and the girls was taken to the hospital. Later on, I found out my uncle was shot 2 times but is still alive and in the hospital. One of the girls is fine but the other one didn't make it. I don't understand how one could take away the life of an innocent child. She was only 11! She didn't deserve that and all cause of an argument!! I'm so close to just losing it. Now the other little girl is going to remember that for the rest of her life. Seeing her sister, her dad, and her dad's girlfriend shot... I'm not going to school tomorrow cause people talk and I will lose it on someone, so I'm going to try to go back on Wednesday and hopefully not many will take about it... hopefully. I just need to tell someone about this and get it off my chest for before I bottle it and have a mental break down later and someone to talk to tomorrow after I get some kind of sleep...

R.I.P Babygirl

~Sky

(And if you know me, you know my past somewhat, but I'm not going to do anything bad. I found my stress reliver and its baking cookies so I'm baking like 200 cookies tomorrow to bring to some of my friends as school Wen.)

[seekingSunshine]

Hugs! I am so sorry for your loss!! I am blank on words. Bake your heart out, spread your love.

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to seekingSunshine]

Thank you, and I will.

[Concernedparent23]

This is beyond tragic - so sorry you’ve lost your cousin.

I’m glad you have a coping strategy today.

I hope the people at school respect your loss and support you the right way.

I also hope you and your remaining cousin and uncle are able to access some counselling support for the grief you’ll experience after the initial shock of this event.

You’re in my thoughts x

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to Concernedparent23]

I hope people at my school have respect to cause as long as I've been there, all they do is talk bad about things and I don't know if I can handle that or not.

[Concernedparent23 in reply to Midnightwolf1]

Keep posting here Sky, we’re here to listen. You’re doing the right thing to get it off your chest, I know it can’t be easy.

Are there any teachers or pastoral care workers you could talk to at school in case of any difficulties with other people’s reactions?

I feel like I can smell your baking from here - good job imaginary cakes are calorie free!

X

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to Concernedparent23]

Yea, tomorrow when I go back to school, I'm going to see if the principle would announce to not talk about it for me. And if I do hear people talk about it and I get upset I' going to try and walk out before I lose it on someone. And lol, that's the good thing about imaginary cakes

[Concernedparent23 in reply to Midnightwolf1]

Difficult time for you and your family.

Sounds like you have some good coping techniques there.

X

[Midnightwolf1 in reply to Concernedparent23]

Yea, I'm just glad I've found a positive coping ways

[hypercat54]

Hi this is awful and no wonder you are feeling so bad. I am so sorry for your loss and may those pour souls RIP. x

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Prayers to you and your family.

[momonthego2019]

I am also sorry to hear how tragedy has struck your family. It seems so senseless the hate that radiates our world at times. I think people are on autopilot and don't take the time to think about the consequences of their actions, they just act, often on pure emotion. Regardless of what has happened, you are going to experience so many emotions in the upcoming days and weeks (as you have started to experience already). You seem to be on the right path to dealing with your pain. Don't let the behaviors of others particurlarly at school cause you to do something you will regret. Its not worth it. Hopefully some people will show some compassion and emphathize with what you are going through. Continue to use this forum as an outlet to be yourself and don't stop baking your cookies. You can expand this to not only bake when you are hurting but to bake cookies for someone you know who has lost a loved one (just wrap them up in a cute box or plate with a comforting note) and you have made both your day and someone else's day brighter.