Feeling Low

[HelpWanted92]

Today was kind of a down moment for me. The week had been going pretty good and then my mind started to wander a bit.

I really had my hopes on driving myself (which I haven’t done in a while because of my anxiety) to this seminar on finding happiness

When the time came to actually do it, I had been anxious almost half the day at that point and couldn’t muster up the courage to go and I’m really beating myself up about it

Sometimes I just want to shake myself and be like SNAP OUT OF IT

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just want this to go away. I want to feel normal again. I’m tired of crying, feeling hopeless. I’m tired of the trembling, raised shoulders, the clenched muscles. I’m just tired.

[MariaLove123]

I do that so much. It’s actually very common. This site helped me to learn that I’m not the only one who struggles to make it to appointments, parties, even family holidays. I literally go into an anxiety ball and think over and over “I don’t want to go. I can’t do this. I don’t want to.” And of course I wind up not going and feel such GUILT and even more anxiety for not going. I’ll never understand. It’s like we know if we go to these things, we’ll feel good about ourselves, but “something” is literally controlling us not to go. Do not beat yourself up! We all do it. I find that when I cancel something, I do a house chore the next day. It’s like a punishment but also makes me feel better for doing something productive. Write it off as “I couldn’t go and I’ll do my best to try and go to the next thing.” Lots of hugs 🤗

[HelpWanted92 in reply to MariaLove123]

Thank you! This just made me cry lol, it just sucks. I try to be as productive as I can everyday but the driving really holds me back. I have been spending allot of money on Uber’s, taxis, etc to get places and I know if I wasn’t anxious about this I could save allot. I just feel like hurting myself more than anything.

[MariaLove123 in reply to HelpWanted92]

Awwww! Please message me anytime you want to talk. I definitely don’t want you to hurt yourself. I know that feeling all too well. The driving thing messed with me today. I had to cancel my plans because I can’t get into my car! I think a lot of this has to do with trauma. That’s been really going through my thoughts a lot lately. Dealing with depression my whole life was manageable but after experiencing trauma my body shut down and broke. It’s so hard to push ourselves. I’m proud of you for taking taxis and Uber’s though. At least it’s getting you out! You’re doing better than you think. I’m always here 💜

[Sillysausage234]

Just saying hello 🌞

[Ann10]

I'm sorry that you were feeling down. Have you considered breaking your goal down into smaller parts? Maybe you could sit in the car and turn it on and drive for a few minutes. Each time you drive you can drive for a few minutes until you want to increase the time.