The fear of going past no return. Ending up in an insane asylum because my anxiety will just be my state of mind forever.
That my memories will be distant if not gone.
That the state of sheer terror will rule my mind and just stuck that way.
That I will just be "crazy" and that be the end
That I will never come back from that panic attack, and that will just be my life from now on....
I have children to tend to, I cant go out like this. But I'm concerned that my mind will be so worn down eventually itll just be that way forever. Stuck. In anxiety.
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When I get in a compromising mental state of perpetual anxiety, the only instruments I have is to surrender to something greater than myself. After surrendering, I have authority to speak against the hell that forms against my heart. I am happy to hear you are a mother. Your child is lucky to have you. They need you. And I have no doubt you have the ability to be the best mom a woman can be.
Its a battle. My heart and support through prayer goes out to you.
I completely understand. Absolutley. These are terrifying lifelong prospects. This isnt dispair. Its honesty. Its only dispair if we think we are going to do this on our own. Its only dispair if we dont go in the direction of surrendering and choosing the life habits to improve our situation. This is not a death sentence, its a challenge that life has given you.
I partician what I can control and what adds to my suffering. Then the things I cant control I give to God.
Its your cross, and your battle. As long as you rest your head knowing you did what you needed to. You have won the day.
Hi. I'm sorry you are going through this. As someone who actually did go crazy and lose it completely for a bit I can tell you it was not from anxiety. Psychosis is different than anxiety. You might be anxious for what feels like forever but it shouldn't cross over into psychosis.
Yes, I came back. Mine was probably drug induced I will never know. I was in the middle of cutting ties with my mom and I finally went off on her for all the abuse. I was researching police reports about my abuse and then my daughter was molested at school and I lost my mind. I didn't know who I was , thought I was Jesus, stripped down in front of the in-laws, tried to attack my mil with an iron, bat**** crazy. Don't know why but yes, I went to the hospital for two months, started meds which I quit after seven years and I came back to reality eventually, I work as a nurse and I am raising a daughter successfully. You can come back but it was not extreme anxiety. Psychosis is a whole different issue. You won't go crazy from anxiety alone. It makes you feel that way but it is a different issue.
Its just scary because when my anxiety attacks come I cant think. I know where I am, but still feel disoriented. I cant think. I feel afraid. And very much like I'm going to pass out nor can breath. My mind goes 10000000 thoughts a minute.
I'm so glad that you came back..... it gives me hope that even if it comes I will come through this.
dbeck128, What Melhall has posted here is of great importance to you. Anxiety disorder is a neurosis not a psychosis. Big difference. It means that no matter how high your anxiety you can never go crazy or lose your mind. Please do remember that.
What's making you ill and fearing the worst is fear. You're listening to the false voice of anxiety whispering in your ear. Anxiety is a liar but until we realise that we go on pumping more and more fear and stress hormones into our bodies making ourselves ill. A self inflicted injury, dbeck128. So maybe it's time to stop frightening yourself to death ever 2.7 minutes. You do that by reassurance.
1. There is no point of no return, anxiety disorder can be cured no matter how long or deeply you have suffered.
2. You will always recover from a panic attack.
3. Your memories will not be lost. Nobody with anxiety disorder ever loses their memory.
5. The power of anxiety is limited: it only has the power to frighten you.
6. If you stop giving anxiety permission to constantly scare you then you would recover in no time at all.
You are going to be o.k., this nightmare will end. Maybe speak to your anxiety say: "I'm losing my fear of you. You're a fake and a fraud and a bully, I now know how limited your power really is. I'm becoming immune to your tricks and bad ways. Why don't you s*d off and get lost? You're not going to get the better of me any more, you con man!"
I completely understand and am going through the same thing . It does feel like I will be stuck in this forever of worry and fear . Know your not alone . I’m a mom of three and my kids have seen in bed for days now trying to get use to this new dosage of lexapro. I pray it gets better for you .
I’ve experienced what you are experiencing. The anxiety makes you feel you are losing your mind. I used to have frequent panic attacks and I would take Xanax to calm down so I could think rationally. Once I was able to think again, I found therapy and a book called The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook by Bourne to be of tremendous help. Now when I feel the anxiety coming on, I tell myself that I’m not dying or losing my mind, but that my anxiety level is very high. I think about what may have caused it. What is going on in my life that is making me especially anxious. I look for triggers and that usually lowers the anxiety along with some deep breathing. If that doesn’t work, I will take a Xanax. I highly recommend the Workbook. And therapy if you aren’t already in therapy.
And don’t overextend yourself. Often, people with a lot of anxiety try to do too much and aren’t very assertive. Practice saying no, when people ask you to do things you either don’t have time for or just don’t want to do. Practice saying, “ I wish I could but . .” Or, “Unfortunately, I already have another commitment.” You have to take care of yourself first. When you feel more empowered and in control of your own life, your anxiety level will go way down.
The mind is complex. There is an illness of many kinds in the world. Some are physical and internal as well. The mental illness such as I. It is complex but it is only a different organ in the body. You can heal the mind. I am 56 and lived with Anorexia for forty years. It begins at 14. Now after 6 years into treatment, I have healed both physical and mental illness. I was dying to it. I may suffer from PTSD because of childhood abuse. The Anorexia came on because of abuse. I have a wonderful mental doctor and therapist who help me survive. Daily I recover and will always. We live like anyone else in this world. People use medications and see doctors for physical and internal illness. We use therapy and some medication to survive daily. This support group is one asset we use as well. Sharing with others who have issues give us THE strength daily. I too like you feel that I would end up in a mental ward. Part of this is the mind playing games with you. Anorexics are told by their eating disorder voice that they are insane. I believed it. My mental doctor tells me I am very sane. If you are taking care of children and productive you are not insane. The fear within may think you will end up that way. I know too well. I wake up daily and fight the enemy of the mind and never be defeated. Do not fear you are going over the edge and nuts. We are not I am positive. Your children need and love you. Be strong and do not listen to your fears. Fear is only a figment of the mind. If in fear do it in fear. Fear then becomes weak and is no longer a fear. In fact, life is weird and those that are totally sane are probably worse off. We have to be a little crazy to survive life. LOL! I am joking but many have said the same. Focus and your children and all that you do to keep them growing. Your thought of insanity will have no place in your mind. You are too busy with the duties of everyday living. You can defeat the battle of the mind. It only took me a lifetime. I am doing it well. Be strong and chat.
I started my depression unknowingly with postpartum depression. I had four children one an infant. My children kept me from sinking too deep I had to be there for them. It's helping you too because you have established a limit.
Hi, I have suffered with bouts of high anxiety for 25 years, Every time I think I am not going to get better and every time I do. I do think I will end up in a Mental Hospital but I never have. Once it passes I feel my old, normal happy, sociable self. All my friends and family know which helps a lot.
Jeff 1943 is very helpful and I am trying to follow his advice so that one day I will be anxiety free. Good luck x
The fact that you're worried about becoming psycgotic, means your not psychotic!!! If you were, you would have had such a break from reality that you would not be aware enough to worry 🤗
When I die, then I die. Suffering to get to that point is scaring me.
Scientists have bragged about helping us to live longer. I want a quality of life, not this ongoing disturbing quantity of life.
Go for talk therapy and meds if appropriate. Not necessary to go on the path alone.
Next week I go for Hypnosis. Back in the day, it was called counseling with a PhD Psychologist. It worked for me to deal several times with life's overwhelming experiences. The few times I've used it with a Therapist has not yielded the helpful results from the past way counseling was conducted.
Keep moving forward. Try as many ideas as you can from various reliable sources. My first "go to place" is tapping and breathing.
Omg! I have the same fear, i’v Been feeling so anxious and depressed for many years that it feels like im stuck for ever and this will never change, im so hopeless
Hi, I thought that many times trust me. It didn’t happen I’m here getting better but do have ups and downs. Take care 💜
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Trying to work up the courage 
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