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[TyJus]

Hi everyone out there,

I am 54 years old and suffering from clinical depression,anxiety and ADD. Things have been getting really bad for me the past 6 months due to being fired/re hired at my job I have been working at for 16 years. This happened due to another employee that I had worked with for the 16 years being a very jealous person and me not allowing her to control me. She made the decision for me to be fired or she would quit, in return my boss tried to fire me and then panicked due to he had no one to do my job so he begged me to come back. In order to keep my job I have been forced to work alone at night in an empty office where I feel very unsafe. I sit home all day doing absolutely nothing and feeling extremely depressed, sad and lonely. I am looking for a new job but have had no luck and feel I am not mentally stable to take on a new job and perform due to my ADD has gotten so bad. Going out of the house lately is such a huge struggle for me as I cry constantly.

My family does not understand depression so I have chosen to keep it to myself. Friends avoid me due to I am so lonely and sad all the time. I want to feel better so I can enjoy my life!

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome!! We understand and are here for you anytime. 😊

[TyJus in reply to Hidden]

Thank You! I appreciate your response. Just writing about it feels good to me.

At least I know others are willing to listen.

[Hidden in reply to TyJus]

Always. I am around here alot just for company and support. Let me know if you ever want to talk.

[bonkers65]

I'm sorry you are having this stress. Hope things get better for you.

[TyJus in reply to bonkers65]

Thank you! I am trying very hard and taking it one day at a time!

Have a great day!

[Sunsetblaze]

Hi TyJus,

I am your same age and fell into depression due to work related stress and depression. It was a long struggle (three PHP/IOP programs and two hospitalizations) but I am back and better than ever. I realize I was severely burnt out and that some changes had to be made in my life. it's easy to get into a state of "unrest" that feeds upon itself. Please search out help that will impact you positively i.e. support group/therapist, medication, self-help books etc. Considering where you are at you will not get better with what you are doing now. I know! Good Luck to you.

[TyJus in reply to Sunsetblaze]

Thank you for your kindness.

I will not give up!

[KMarti19]

Wow that’s hard. Your boss really fired you but really you are doing the job at night? He paying you double I hope. You should stand up to him..... one way or another

[TyJus in reply to KMarti19]

Hi KMarti19,

Yes, and I am really just staying due to I will not let them win. I am being treated unfairly and considering seeing an attorney. Thank you for responding.

Have a Great day!