Never been so depressed & anxious

[Gohorse]

I’ve had bouts before but nothing like this. Been off medication for years & hated it but I’m so bad thinking of it again. Horrible third shift job, no sleep, fattest I’ve ever been, a sad widowed mother, marriage deteriorating & in debt thousands due to bills from a back surgery. Every day is worse. I take no joy in life & so lonely. Never wrote on a board like this but desperately seeking help.

[Hidden]

Oh my goodness..I really feel for you..I would say you don't have a full plate, it's more like a buffet going on for you. Oh the stressors this life can bring on....I'm here for you, wishing you all the best.

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!

[Gohorse in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your kind words. I can’t seem to pull myself out of this black hole.

[Hidden in reply to Gohorse]

Is there anything you really enjoy doing? How about some good tunes? Feed as much positive that you can into your mind...it will breed more positive for you. Hang in there, fight the good fight for you...why? Because you are special there's only one you...and you can't be replaced! Keep your power..it's yours and only yours..let me know how you make out, okay?

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[Gohorse in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I am trying but have no interest in anything anymore. And stuck in that weird spot where you don’t want to help yourself but hate yourself for not wanting to be better. I don’t know it’s hard to explain.

[Hidden in reply to Gohorse]

Oh I get where you're coming from 100%...however it's up to us..we have to push through this pain..it's a battle but we must fight with everything we have. Are you getting any help from a Dr.?

[Gohorse in reply to Hidden]

I talk to a counselor this week but only get 3 sessions. I saw my regular doctor this week. Her advice was to see a counselor and get outside more. Super not helpful

[Hidden in reply to Gohorse]

I know what you mean..I'm an agoraphobic..my hubby doesn't get how I can stay home all the time...I tell him it's my safe haven and it truly is..however I've always been a homebody. Funny how things can change..I used to be so outgoing...not so much these days...so I understand. Keep working on yourself...you'll get there! Stay positive..I know that can be a huge challenge...however what other choice do we have?

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!

[Hidden]

Oh my ...I forgot to tell you welcome to the site..so many kind and caring people here....we all understand all too well..You may contact me anytime you'd like..I'll try to help you in any way I can!

Dump trucks of love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[Gohorse in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much. I do appreciate it

[jgal3]

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. I hear that you are depressed, anxious and lonely. It certainly sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now. I am sure that the long work hours, lack of sleep and stress from debt are not helping matters at all. My days are long taking care of my children and volunteering, I have suffered with insomnia for decades, and I too am in debt up to my eyeballs due to motor vehicle accidents. I could not manage these kinds of stressors without my medications though. My medications really help me stay on top of everything along with therapy, prayer and exercise. I'm glad that you shared the things that you are struggling with. You are not alone in your struggles. If you ever need someone to talk to you can call this number and someone can provide a free phone consultation with a licensed counselor (855-382-5433). In the meantime, I will be praying for you.

[Gohorse in reply to jgal3]

Thank you so much for your kind words