Not enough

[pharm2019]

The love of my life for 2 years told me he doesn’t get excited to hang out with me anymore because all I do is fight. I try to be patient and calm but his words hurt and every time I try I feel like I am going backwards as if I am so useless. He said before we met he life was going uphill in every way and now because of me he is going downhill mentally emotionally physically and financially. Apparently that was never an issue with anyone else so I am the problem. Am I just bad luck or am I doing something wrong. I can’t stop crying. His words hurt too much and he doesn’t care. He says I’m sensitive and that’s the truth. It hurts me to hear this. I have no one to talk to and let this out to. It pains me so much because he calls me selfish and that I dont give him what he needs and every woman by nature is caring and has nurture and I dont have that. Im not normal and I’m weird. I always compare myself after he says this. I need a lot of help. I’m becoming so depressed and can never be happy anymore. I dont know what to do

[Nom-D-Ploom]

He is not hearing you. He doesn't understand PTSD, and you cannot pour your knowledge into him. He is not nurturing you either...…….sometimes 'the stewing is worse than the doing.' In other words, if you two are not meeting the needs of the other it may be time to let go. Trying to decide to walk away was harder on me than the ending happened to be.

If you are married the decision becomes much harder, and it may be worth it to hang on more.

For what it's worth, I once wrote a song about it that seems relevant:

Troubled Waters

They say still waters run deep so I guess they do

But the river's been a little rough for me and you.

The bad times seem like they're gonna last forever

But somehow you and me are still together

I guess that troubled waters

Can run deep too

Bitter words might flow

But hearts stay true

When all the storms have passed

I'll still be here with you

So I guess troubled waters can run deep too.

[hypercat54]

Hi I have to agree with Nom-D-Ploom. Don't forget it takes 2 to fight so don't take all the blame onto yourself. Even if he doesn't understand he should be supportive and not put you down like this. I think you deserve better. x