Anyone else just had enough?

[weegmack]

I could scream until I pass out. In Scotland. Been in lockdown for 9 weeks. Next Thursday, we start the first phase out of 4, which will apparently get our lives back to some sort of normality.

I’m done. I can’t live like this anymore. Everyone in my house is utterly miserable. My eldest daughter was living with her bf and hasn’t seen him for 10 weeks, thanks to his mother being ridiculous about them living together and insisted he come home. My daughter is a complete wreck and I can’t get any help for her. Nobody in my house is afraid. We’re just utterly fed up and desperate to see our family and loved ones. Personal contact will be the last phase, which could be September or later. Can’t take it. Don’t want to live. Don’t want anymore to do with this awful, awful world. I haven’t seen my mother in 11 weeks. My in-laws live in a flat and are literally climbing the walls. Nothing I do to divert us makes a difference. I’d rather die than live in a world like this. I don’t see any end to it. I hate life. It sucks.

[lorianxiety]

Weegmack, im in Scotland too.life is bleak and lockdown, is something sooo Unreal, my heart is gonna pack up under the strain as so many others .....its going to improve,need to have hope.Im watching the Paul OGrady story ch5 just about finished--the only half decent prog,and its past my bedtime.....do try to stay strong ,its a dreadful situation thats hit practically the entire world--dont give up.bye for now.

[weegmack in reply to lorianxiety]

I’m trying so hard not to give up, but I just can’t see a way to get through each day. You’re right - life is very bleak here and our phases are going to be hard to get through. I hope you’ll be ok - do you have anxiety and depression like me? Xx

[lorianxiety in reply to weegmack]

Hi yes I have had a depressing life ,and plagued by anxiety,its not a good feeling sand cant even travel if I so wished ;too many ifs and buts,and its hard ,though I think you sound stronger than you think,so hang on ,its frustrating and horrible but in a couple of months slowly things will start to become easier and no matter what happens you can turn your life around ,and if I do too then anyone can having been in Lockdown most of my life .hoping you find solutions to a very difficult situation.good luck.take care.

[weegmack in reply to lorianxiety]

Thank you - that was a lovely and reassuring message. I’m sorry you’re struggling so much and I’m sending you a big hug ♥️

[lorianxiety in reply to weegmack]

Thanks,I need as others do acknowledgement,we are all struggling in our own way and BorisJ.hasnt made things easier,I will pray that you get your life back on track and that you most certainly come out a stronger person take care and stay safexx

[Siouxzie68]

Times are really tough that’s a given but on the positive you’ve got your little girl with YOU regardless how old she is!! And if mother in law to be is so awful then she’s massively lucky to have you x x x ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[weegmack in reply to Siouxzie68]

I appreciate what you’re saying ,but I’d rather she was with her bf in their flat. I’m watching her waste away everyday - yesterday she was almost catatonic. They were living in flats that are built for students in Glasgow and were managing just fine. My daughter is independent and mature for her age (20) and they have been together for 5 years this December. BF is 21. The flats are not halls of residence, so they were still allowed to stay there. But his mother kicked up a fuss and threatened all sorts if he didn’t come home. He is also very depressed, told his parents and was told to “man up”. They are awful people. By the end of next week, they will be allowed to meet up outside, 2 metres apart. But his mother won’t allow him to do that and my daughter says she will find it too heartbreaking, because she just wants to hug him. The best thing they can do is move back into their flat, as soon as we are allowed to make the 45 minute journey up there. I have anxiety disorder, depression and probably heading for divorce (problems from before this pandemic). I have a 18 year old daughter too, also struggling mentally, because all her plans have been taken away. I am doing everything I possibly can to keep their spirits up, but I am running on empty. I’m extremely worried about my elder daughter as she’s just NOT my daughter...she is dead behind the eyes and rarely smiles.

This virus will have a bigger impact on mental health than it will on physical health. I’ve already read numerous papers from the Lancet and WHO that the suicide rate has hit a peak the world over - due to worries about employment and the never-ending uncertainly and also the long term isolation. I don’t want my daughter to be another statistic.

This is why I question the point in living at all.

[weegmack]

That’s so awful, I’m so sorry 😞. X

[Siouxzie68]

OMG you really are in a catch 22 kinda damned if you do or don’t maybe he should man up a bit and stand up to her!!! She sounds very controlling. These are awful times but at least she does have YOU !!! It’s easy to say be strong but if it counts for anything I’m here to listen!!! ❤️

[weegmack in reply to Siouxzie68]

He really does need to stand up to her! My wee family are quite vocal and we do speak up if we’re another with each other and thrash it out till we’ve sorted it. His family just DO NOT talk at all. I don’t think they’ve ever challenged anyone. I do know that he told his mum and dad that he was feeling depressed and hopeless - their response was “man up and don’t be so selfish”! Horrible people. I’d have him over to stay with us in a heartbeat. But my husband is traditional and not happy to do that. I’m working on him......x

[Misspell]

I'm so tired too. Lost my son to suicide. Took care of my mother as she died from cancer, only wishing I would have died from mine. I pray every day to die. I've lost everything. I can't believe the pain I live everyday. I found my son hanging and tried to save him. It was to late, now I look for the strength to end it. I think about it everyday and I hate that I'm still here. I have no family, and no one would really cares if I died. I was left with everything. It's so unbelievable no one would believe it. I pray for this life to end, but I will do my best to get through each day. I know God loves me, and I hope I can make a difference through all this pain. Sorry my pain is so great and I've had a really hard time making it through everything this week. Thank you so much for listening.