Some of the anxiety is seeping back into my mind. I hope I can make it go away.
Tomorrow is my first appointment with a new therapist. I think sometimes I do this thing to my own mind where I make myself feel bad in some way - so I’ll have a good reason to go the therapist.
I have this feeling in my head that I have to have something really wrong, in order to go to the therapist. I think my own mind stirs things up sometimes, because of this. Does anybody else do this?
I have not experienced this, but I may be a great thing to bring up to your therapist and talk through the why’s & feelings behind them. Best of luck!
I have a lot of trouble letting myself have good things, in general.
I totally get that ✨
That’s something to tell your therapist you would like to work on. Good luck. You deserve it!
I think when we suffer with anxiety it can take away our self-esteem causing us to feel that we don't deserve good things in our lives. I am like this about most things, but it's the ilness taking away our self confidence. I'm sure when you see the therapist all your fears will allied because, after all, this person is there to help you, not to judge you.
God luck with your appointment!
I think of therapy as self care. I’m still going to go as long as I can even when I feel great.
I understand what you are saying. Sometimes being proactive is the best therapy. Going to a therapist to "stay" healthy, rather than to "get" healthy, is wise. Our battles are often won when we are following a routine that works. Doing my devotionals first thing in the morning, keeps me healthy. Talking honestly, openly, and deeply with my husband and friends keeps me healthy. What will keep you healthy? Blessings to you today.
What did you have for breakfast and what does it reflect about you?
Do you find yourself feeling obsessive over others' behaviors?
Does doing something good for yourself feel empty?
What do you do to get yourself back up? 
