I wonder if the ones who don't suffer from any kind of mental illnesses know how PRICELESS it is to have a calm mind

I remember the good old days when I used to be 'normal' completely took it for granted. Mental health never crossed my mind

I agree with Candy, although I have always been a person to worry a lot. I don't thin I even knew what anxiety and panic was until I was diagnosed back in 08. "The good old days" will come back to us I'm sure one day.

I know what you mean... even those who love & support us have no idea. It's hard to fake everything is normal, when you really really need it to be, but you rather run screaming to your safe place. I hope we all can get to point when we can enjoy life again.

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Hi Everyone,

As the saying goes "You are your own worst enemy" was never truer than when suffering from those days when everything has gone right and you've had a good day, but you still feel like your holding your breath waiting for the bubble to burst and everything to go black and bleak again.

What is normal anyway? I look around me these days and also from hearing what is going on in the world and it seems to me that these days normal looks like, marriages and families breaking up, kids carrying weapons to school and harming each other. Teachers all stressed out with larger class sizes and having to fill in so much paperwork they can't spend as much time on the kids as they would really like. Normal seems to be stalking and bullying via social media. Normal seems to be you need to have all the latest gadgets and fashion accessories even if it ends up with you being in so much debt you just don't know how to pay it off.

Normal seems to be I'll get married not really mean all those vows, oh and also I wasn't really honest with you about my personality or what I was looking for in partner before we married. (Yes, I truly believe in the marriage vows even although I don't go to church and it really bothers me about people to even attempting to work things out or just marrying for the money or because they wanted a skivvy)

Why be normal, if that is what normal is these days.

I'd rather not fit in with the crowd and be the person I want to be. I want to be a real person and that means a unique person not a cookie cutter person.

Next time your feeling uncomfortable because you have had a good day and your scared that it won't last, go somewhere with a mirror. Your bathroom or bedroom is usually a good place. Stand in front of that mirror say to yourself "That 20Voices is A LOT UNIQUE, but I am here anyway so I will give it a go." Put on your scary look, you know the one that tells people they had better not to mess with you, that you mean business. (Mines is hands on hips and just a little raise on an eyebrow, apparently.) Look at yourself in the mirror straight in the eye and shout (well say if you are really not up to shouting and attracting the attention of the whole neighbour) "Look brain, I am putting you in your place. I have had a good day and you are not getting to spoil it. Maybe tomorrow isn't going to be as good, maybe it is going to be even better, maybe it isn't. But right here, right now I am feeling good and I am going to feel good for as long as I can, so right here and right now I am putting you on the naughty chair go there and have a cup of tea and don't bother me until there is a reason to bother me." Or something to that affect.

I now have an image in my head of all these professionals round the world cringing as people go into their sessions and relay my method of getting over the "I have had a great day, but I can't enjoy it cause I am worried that tomorrow will be a bad day" and my version of normal is to be unique.

Oh well if anything else you are either stunned into silence/ killing yourself laughing/ wondering what medications I am really on/ or just thinking I have a screw loose now.

All I can say is I have found my "normal" again. Come join me, find out what your "normal" is. Don't worry remember my normal is UNIQUE and yours doesn't have to be as way out with the ideas as mine is, you set your normal.

If I have scared anyone I do apologize, that was not my intention, please be yourselves and keep going to get your life to what you want it to be.

Take care.

I know what you mean. I am in my sixties, and have never found a place in this world career wise. A friend told me that I was immature. Sometimes I envy people who have found a place in this world. I have not. So, I have my husband and dog, but I withdraw or pretend with everyone else, and I am cracking. I fired a therapist two weeks ago who called me an "immature little girl" - yup in my sixties. She also had a temper tantrum in the last session. Glad that insurance paid her to act abusively .