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I had a panic attack on my way to the train this morning. I feel like another one is creeping up. It's been 2 weeks without my therapist (i'm in the market for a new one) and it's been really difficult. I think I've been burying my emotions and being super critical of them.

I keep thinking about the sexual assault and how my PTSD symptoms have been very hit or miss. I'm at work today and I am so angry! I want to throw my computer out the window and follow after it!

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Hi Comb. I just wanted to send you some comfort & 💛. I am currently dealing with the abuse I went through as a child & can relate to what you are going through.... I hope you find a new therapist soon, please take it easy on yourself... & reach out. You aren't alone & are stronger than you think.

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Sorry to hear of your bad experience, I hope he got what he deserved.

Panic attacks are horrible but remember they're not life threatening, they won't leave you disabled or send you crazy.

Panic attacks are fuelled by fear and that includes fear of (and due to) the panic attack itself. You feel it coming, it hits you and you start pumping out the stress and fear hormones which keep your nerves sensitised. That in turn can produce further panic attacks and so the vicious circle rolls on.

Panic attacks are unpleasant but do we really have to react to them with fear? If you can accept the next attack with fortitude you can eventually break that vicious circle giving sensitised nerves time to recover.

Why let something that is merely a glitch in your nervous system bully you and make your life a misery.

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Sablegirl in reply toJeff1943

Jeff, while some of your knowledge is correct, your not even remotely tapped into what it’s like to live inside your mind and body that’s been brutally abused, accosted & then pretty much have to fend for every last vestige of mental capacity just to remember to breathe and still feeling much like that woman with a scarlet letter on her forehead, hope to hell someone at work, school, church doesn’t see any of it written all over you. Have to calm yourself in the dead of night when the flashbacks even in your subconscious, wake you in an immediate & unavoidable panic/anxiety state that you never asked for, but are a very REAL Reality!

And in case you aren’t aware, yes they’re disabling & Do make you feel like you’re losing what’s left of your heart and mind.

Comb, I’m so sorry that this is happening to you! I wouldn’t wish it on anyone else (even tho the abusers need some form of torture).. I hear you!

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Jeff1943 in reply toSablegirl

I'm sorry my post upset you so much but it was directed at comb not you. It only dealt with the problem of panic attacks which I have some experience of: the first was in 1974 which may have been before you were born.

You say that in case I'm not aware they are both disabling and can make you lose your mind. The point I made was that panic attacks are not permanently disabling and although you may feel you're losing your mind you don't actually lose it.

As for the rest of your angry post directed at me these are not things I have any experience of so I did not write on those subjects (eg. I have never been abused myself). So I think your personal attack on me over SUBJECTS I DID NOT MENTION was uncalled for and a really rather weird thing to do.

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I’m suffering panic attacks from a recent breakup. Horrible. I’m still in love, he is not. So the anxiety has me feeling like my air shuts off. I can’t catch a breath... over and over nonstop I try n breath but I can’t. Sitting in church Sunday and the pastors wife gets right up on stage. She says ( looking right at me) ( in my mind for sure) when I have negative thoughts or worry I do not allow it to affect my life nor happiness. I sing this song “ Jesus.....Jesus...Jesus. Because no one or nothing is stronger than my savor our God. Just try it. When you’re overwhelmed or you have negative thoughts just sing his name. “ simple right?? With these non stop panick attacks I thought ok..I’m either going to be able to breath or hang myself. It’s only Monday about 3 pm, I’ve sang his name in my head prob 223 xs. Every single time the attack immediately dissipated. Yesterday they came right back and I would stop them singing his name, but by today I’m starting to focus more on the positive and less of the what if’s and why I’m not loved. It’s helping me, and I hope this will help you.

I went to urgent care for the panic attacks on Friday. They would not help me. I can’t see my dr until July.

This tool of life a pastors wife spoke in our church has probably changed my life.

Have faith and work on changing and controlling your own thoughts .

I’m time I believe my panic attacks will not return.

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