Anxiety Attack?

[colorscheme]

I had a very scary incident last night where I was acting very manic, frenetically moving while talking to myself, running around like a madwoman, then ultimately curling up in the fetal position and then just staring off into space. I have never had an experience like this before and it scared me and my husband very much. I have started seeing a therapist as of last week and I'm assuming that this is a by product of my new treatment and it is a floodgate that is opening right now that I can't seem to handle.

Anyway, I called a bunch of hotlines this morning that really helped me talk through it as I wait to talk to my therapist about what happened and I wanted to share my story in case there are others going through something similar right now.

In a world where I feel alone and isolated most of the time and it feels like no one in my life understands me, I'm sure there are many people out there suffering silently and I hope that they can find the peace and happiness that we all deserve.

[TickingClock]

i too feel this way from time to time - usually right before bed or while i am laying in my bed trying to relax/sleep. no matter how many times people say youre not alone, you in that very moment always feel alone. but i try and shake off the feelings, think of something else or do something else that distracts me.

i am sorry you feel this way - but its a great step that your talking to someone and taking the initiative and even calling people to listen - i hope all of it works out for you in the end and you get the answers your mind and body desperately is seeking for. <3 i send my love

[colorscheme in reply to TickingClock]

You're so right. All these practices are hard to initiate when you're in the moment but I'm doing whatever I can do to make healthy choices as hard as it is to do something healthy when your brain is telling you to do everything otherwise! Thanks for your input and sending love right back!

[mvillarreal]

Were you confused at all or having suicidal thoughts by chance? This sounds a lot like what I went through when I had a nervous breakdown, but if you weren't confused or suicidal, it may have been a panic attack.

[colorscheme in reply to mvillarreal]

I was having suicidal thoughts in terms of thinking that I didn't want to live anymore but not thinking about how to execute them. I was definitely confused because I've never acted like this before and my husband in our 6+ years together has never seen this either. I spoke with my therapist today in an emergency call and he actually said it sounded like a manic episode. I am planning on seeing a psychiatrist to seek an actual diagnosis. I thought it was a nervous breakdown personally but I guess I'll have to see when I speak to another professional. Thanks for your input!

[mvillarreal in reply to colorscheme]

Good luck! Hope you feel better soon!