Am I crazy or is this personality disorder or do I just need to suck this up?

Hi guys I’m 21 and have been completely mired with generalised anxiety disorder and panic disorder for over a year now and due to that I’ve not been going out and things. However I feel like my friends have an unconscious bias where they don’t do they same thing for me as they do for my other friends while I’ve been going through this and they all know I have I’ve not had any of them reach out and talk to me despite me doing it on numerous occasions. They have group chats without me in them don’t invite me places but if other friends aren’t invited they go mad and that’s deemed ok? Like I just found out they’ve had a group chat for three years without me included and I just view it as they think it’s ok to exclude me or I’m not included in the group. But then I think that viewing everyone as against you is a personality disorder symptom? So have I got this as an underlying issue or is it my anxiety making me think my closest friends don’t care of like me?

Sorry I know this isn’t a massive pressing issue but I thought it would be good to get impartial views

[Calm_mama]

Hi my friend,

It's impossible to have a good sense of this w/o more info and really spending time with you. BUT my strong hunch based on everything you've said here and glancing at your previous posts is that this is 110% anxiety. Oh, and your friends being a little thoughtless/maybe exclusive in their behavior with you having something of a normal reaction to that. Not PD. It doesn't fit the bill for PD at all.

For the incident you describe, maybe try to vet the facts of the situation. Facts only, no emotional response. Perhaps their group chat started with a specific common interest? Perhaps they left not only you, but others off? Perhaps it was a complete oversight? Perhaps they are truly careless about your feelings and it might be good to find some new people to add to your friend list?

Are you in therapy? Therapy is the bomb Can help soooooo much with anxiety

[Hidden in reply to Calm_mama]

Thank you both for responding I know it’s a trivial thing to complain about considering other people’s problems on here I hope you are doing well with things you might be dealing with. They just talk about random stuff in it really my brother showed it to me who is also friends with all my friends and thinks there is no issue and that has been suggested to me but I just think I’d friends I’ve had for a decade don’t care about me will the next group

[Kkimm in reply to Hidden]

It is not at all trivial, we all want to feel accepted. I think calm mama's advice should be helpful for you.

Kim

[knittingninja]

A question about these group chats. How do they make you feel? My opinion is to listen to that feeling.