So I went to Houston this weekend to visit my girlfriends family (keep in mind they don’t know we are together) it was a surprise for her grandmas 70th birthday. Her grandpa has been battling cancer for 10 years while we were there he went to the hospital for unknown reasons. We ended up having to leave right after they got his scans back. They found that his cancer spread to his brain and yesterday we got news that he is going to hospice my girlfriend is devastated.
She just told me she wants to move to be with him during his last days. Now I understand the importance of her family and the seriousness of his illness. But when she told me the only thing I have been able to focus on is that I’m going to lose her. I keep focusing on that she is moving and my anxiety is shot through the roof.. this is my girlfriend of three years and I don’t want to lose her
Keep in mind we live together share a care her and her family is my family I don’t have anyone else to rely on
I can’t move with her because there is no where for me to stay over there. I don’t have any money saved to buy my own car let alone move over there so I feel like my whole world is crashing
I feel like a shitty person because I should focus on the fact that she is losing someone close to her but I can only focus on the fact that I’m losing the love of my life the one I rely on for a lot
I guess I’m just lookin for advice. Bc I am at a loss I don’t know what to do or how to act I keep crying and I don’t want to make myself sick I feel like dying or hurting myself so I don’t have to feel this pain.