tired

[amandagray]

i dont get the point of it all man. kinda just want to take the rest of my bottle of zoloft and go to sleep. that sounds way more appealing than it should. everything just seems so superficial and pointless. everything that used to make me happy doesnt anymore. not even music. idk how to cope anymore. whats the point of going through life just trying to cope with it anyway?? idk...

[Needtovent]

Amanda, i know how dreary a day can appear and make us question our own existence. It takes time and work to recover from whatever you are going through. In the meantime, we are here for you, I’m around if you want to chat. One day you’ll put on the radio and you’ll find your toe tapping and maybe even some words will flow from your mouth as you sing a long to a song that you hear. To get there, we put one foot in front of the other, go through the motions if we have to, until all of a sudden a little bit of desire actually returns to our being. Keep talking to us.

[Sillysausage234]

Try and watch some comedy

[Pugglesworth]

Hi Amanda.

Sounds like you're in a dark place. I've been there too. I still find myself there sometimes. I would be out shopping with my wife and be disgusted with the brick-a-brack and nonsense the shops were selling. I've left a full grocery cart in the store and just walked out because somebody cut in front of me to get their tomatoes (my blood pressure went through the roof). I've wanted to lay in bed all day because of the seeming futility of it all. I've contemplated the benzo route. I went through an existential crisis that destroyed my world. I was in the ER more times than I can count. I thought I would always feel miserable and life was pedantic.

But it isn't that way. That's just a perception. And, like all things, it will change.

suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Don't go it alone.

Human beings were never meant to function like that.

[Alex_28]

Definitely been there. Coping is so annoying sometimes. I wish I could snap and everything would be okay. When I'm at that point, I usually try to plan something fun to do - our local art museum has free admit on Sundays, and art calms me and makes me think. Something little that I can plan for and give myself a little something to look forward to. Sometimes it's just a bubble bath! You can do this.

[marheart]

Do you have family/friends you love? I keep going for my adult son. I am an only child who married an only child and we had an only child later in life. Don't want him to live with the stigma of Mom stopping the struggles.

Doesn't leave any wiggle room for a support system when outsiders don't understand our daily struggles. I don't know how to handle them for myself either.

One small step at a time and live for the moment of any relief.

I'm grateful to be able to vent today. Usually I keep it bottled up except for once a week Talk Therapy. I have not improved. Have moved from Anxiety to Panic and Depression. That's understandable when nothing is really working to make improvements. Not appreciated.