I feel lost.

[FindingMyselfxo]

Many days I feel like I don’t know who I am. I feel lost within my own thoughts, I convince myself that I’m not worthy of anything and nothing good will happen to me. I always think people are making fun of me or think I’m lame. I’ve been in embarrassing situations before and I just feel like I get look at as being an embarrassment. My energy is so low I feel it effecting my toddler. He often looks sad which kills me. My anxiety is muchhhhh better than it was before almost non existent since getting my own place. I’m trying to move on from an ex that I broke up with but constantly feel sad about it and that I made a mistake but I was so unhappy and while half of my brain try’s to convince me that it was the right thing to do the other half is filled with guilt and wondering if he moved on and found someone better than me. I feel hopeless, like I’ll never find love or myself. I have so much to be happy for but I can’t smile. I feel like everything that’s gone wrong in my life is my fault but I’ve been pinning it to other people without wanted to face the issues within myself. *sigh* I just needed to vent

[Sober2007]

Hi and thanks for sharing. I've found cognitive behavioral therapy helpful when it comes to addressing the negative thoughts that keep me stuck, sad, tired and confused. My therapist has really helped me identify and address some cognitive distortions which, if you aren't familiar, are basically the sometimes very harsh things we tell ourselves at times that can get blown out of proportion. There is a way to learn to think differently. That's what I've been working on lately. Are you currently seeing someone for care?

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I hope spilling this out helped to some degree. I feel the same, but, I don't have a child. I do have a nephew that I watch and am responsible for a couple days a week. I try to give him plenty attention, but what's sad is that it's out of my character to be all fun and outgoing, which is what littles ones typically want. It's a tough feeling when you're trying to do right, but in your head, it all just feels wrong.

[jgal3]

It certainly sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now. I like Sober2007 's suggestion about cognitive behavioral therapy to help with all the negative thoughts. Break-ups are never easy. I remember when I broke up with someone I was dating that I had been living with years ago. I got my own apartment and cried myself miserable for a month wondering what he was doing when I wasn't with him, wondering if he was ok. After that month was over, I moved back in with him and we got married. True story! I couldn't stand to be apart from him and that feeling never went away which was enough for me to know I truly loved him. Your situation may be entirely different, but for me I realized that love is a choice. I simply decided that I was going to love him. It may be helpful to discuss some of the thoughts you have been having with a counselor. If you don't already have a counselor, you can call this number and someone can provide a free phone consultation with a licensed counselor (855-382-5433). Hope you feel better soon. I will be praying for you and your child. Take care.