Like the last post... I have all the negative feelings that can exist. I also feel that posting here and talking to the few people I have (my mom and sister) don't work anymore
I've simply locked myself, I have nothing to share, nothing is good. I don't like to talk to people anymore. I don't wanna see people either. Everything is a mess.
I have no future if I keep feeling like this. Everything I had it's gone. There is only sorrow left
You write to us. That alone tells me that you want to talk to us. That tells me you belive there is a chance to get better, i can see that you still have hope!
I was in a similar state, all alone and slowly crumbling. I moved back to my dad, because i could not stand being alone anymore.
get social contact on a dayly basis
I can see that you still have hope.
I want you to keep posting in here, keep sharing. You might give up on us, but we will always be here. And we here you!
Thank you for replying. I keep posting cos I feel I need to say smth cos I'm dying inside.
I'm in not good form. I have lost everything I had. The confidence and the self-esteem don't exist anymore.
I feel afraid and I don't want my mom leaves me alone. I sleep with her in her room and In the morning I don't want she gets up because I feel bad alone but at the same time I don't wamna be nor talk to other ppl
Hi Vanessi
I agree with Rubber duck. Try not to give up hope. You are a valuable worthwhile person who has a right to be happy and has a great contribution to make to the world even though you don't know this at present.
Others on this website will gain just by hearing how you feel because they realise they feel the same and therefore are not alone.
One day you will feel better.
Are you undergoing therapy or on any antidepressants, if not you have nothing to loose by trying. Go to your GP and talk it through. It is not your true self talking but aload of extra chemicals pouring into your system because you have depression. It can be changed but takes time and you will need the support of your mum and sister to cope when your first start to take medication.
All our thoughts and good wishes are with you.
Kim
As Kim said, you should visit your primary care provider or physician. What if there is a physiological reason for the way that you are feeling?
I also agree that you need the support of others. Your family, especially your mom may be a good place to start, but they are not substitutes for getting the help of a licensed counselor or therapist.
Maybe this TedEx talk would be helpful for you? Nick Vujicic | TEDxNoviSad
Dec 27, 2018.
Please keep writing and sharing with us here as well. You can get through this and your life is valuable.
I went to psychologist last year but it didn't work. It made me feel uncomfortable. Plus right now I cannot afford a psychologist. But I feel so bad. I'm thinking of antidepressants.
I have all negative feelings. I feel so anxious all the time, I'm afraid of everything and everybody. Today I went to the supermarket with my mother and I started to feel anxious, panicked for being outside at home and I wanted to come back immediately. I hate my life. Sometimes I would like to die to stop suffering
Hi Vanessi
It does sound as if you need the help of antidepressants. I felt very similar to you 21 months ago. You need to remember that they very often make you feel worse before you feel better so you will need the support of your mum for the first few weeks.
It took about 4 months for me to feel back to my old self and then a year to more or less fully recover. There are lots of good and bad days and different symptoms that come and go but you can start having some good days again 2 weeks in but will also have bad days. The important thing is to stick with them knowing you will get better.
Also try to set yourself little challenges every day and try to keep your thinking positive and do not be afraid of any symptoms you have.
You will get better and get your life back.
Very best wishes.
Kim
That is what I tried but as always, everything I do never work out. Honestly I feel very bad. I hate my life and I hate myself. How can I fight for smth that I wanted and I know I will never have. It is pointless. The only thing I want is to feel ok being alone.
Would you consider seeing a physician? I know that antidepressants can sometimes be helpful, but a physician would be best able to diagnose you and help you decide which one is the best fit for you. If you are interested, I can give you the phone number for a free consultation with a licensed counselor. They might be able to help you find someone in your area. Also, some counselors are required to use a sliding scale for payment. If nothing else, please at least see your primary care provider.
I understand your frustration, anxiety can be overwhelming. For about 1-1.5 years, I found myself anxious and ashamed going out into public. Somehow, I still managed to go to church but I intentionally arrived late. When I went shopping, I either was helping my grandmother and went late in the evening when the store was nearly empty. Maybe you could do little things to stretch yourself but not become overanxious? It is also important to let your support people know how you are feeling. My now husband was wonderful at this. I would tell him when I was becoming anxious and he would talk me through it. Outside of the situation, we would talk about it and he would ask how I wanted him to handle if a similar situation came up. Do you have anyone that can help you like that?
When you get into moments of crisis, you can also text the crisis text line 741741, call the suicide prevention line, or if necessary visit the emergency room.
Thank you so much but I live in Mexico and here we don't have so much of that: counsellors, help, etc it is so much different here. Anyway I don't have someone like that. Actually the man who was gonna be my husband made me this. He drove me to this situation and then I became insecure, sad, disappointed, etc.. as I said all the negative adjectives you can find. Since I was 17 I suffer depression but with the years it has increased or reduced... the thing is he dumping me as a trash ended me up. It is like I was on the edge of a tall building and he only pushed me to death. I just needed him to stab me on the back to sink myself on this. And it is not only that he left me. He tried to be with me again and he did the same.
I needed him and what I received? Nothing cos he ignored my calls, my messages and everything as I was his worst enemy and still hurts cos I didn't do anything bad to him to be treated like that. So I became very shy, anxious, unconfident, depressed, unhappy, unfriendly and very quiet.
The only people I have is my mother and sister but sometimes they can't deal with this
By now, I don't want a relationship, I only want to feel ok with myself being alone like I was. And do my life. I don't wanna be hurt anymore.
yes ,i feel the same ,but i am more frustrated with my mind is so indecisive ,and not functioning properly.My thinking, concentration, memory all are gone.
I just feel like I'm dead inside. That I have no soul, and that I'm a demon. If that makes any sense
Does anyone know why I feel like this? Plz 
I feel trapped and scared
Does anyone else feel detached?
Does anyone else feel invisible, because you've created that as your persona by not talking?
