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[brokenlight]

Yesterday repeatedly kicked my ass.

Stressful prep for an upcoming surgery, painful procedure that surprisingly triggered me in ways that I’m still trying to make sense of 😔, the pressure to “make the right decisions” regarding surgery, anxiety was/is consuming me, 2 close calls (full blown panic attacks), terrible physical pain with little relief, & then in the middle of the night my emotional support kitty aka my best friend had a random as f#%* violent seizure. 😢 (I’ve spoken to a vet and she’s been monitored nonstop since & is acting like her normal self but it took multiple hours to get there).

I laid on the floor with her for hours, comforting her, crying, and researching.

I fell asleep next to her (for maybe 2 hours) & then had to get up and take my kiddo to school.

The combination of everything in conjunction with the deep trauma work that I’ve recently been doing feels like it’s all too much.

Gratitude is the only thing keeping me afloat.

I’m so thankful my kitty is okay.

I’m so thankful for health insurance.

I’m thankful for this app.

I feel alone today...

I’m here for love & support.

Thank you for being here 💙

[Agora1]

brokenlight, we would be nothing without people like yourself who help

make this forum what it is. Amazing. x

There is a book I keep on my desk called "Learning to Dance in the Rain"

The Power of Gratitude.....if you ever get a chance to read it.

You are never alone. We walk beside you with love and support xx

[brokenlight in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much for your reply to my post Agora1.

After I wrote it & read it back to myself, it felt a bit whiny but those were my honest thoughts & feelings in the moment.

Thank you for your kind words & thank you for being here.

I appreciate your reminders, suggestion, & support a lot.

[Starrlight]

❤️ 💕 🤗

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

Appreciated 😊😊😊

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

How are you doing now?

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

I’m doing a little better.

Thank you so much for asking Starrlight ✨

I hope you have a beautiful day.

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

Aww sooo cool so glad I know it seems like as soon as we are better it gets bad again but I guess we have to ride the waves. You have a beautiful day too! ❤️

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

I use that phrase a lot when referring to anxiety... I guess it applies to all things.

Thank you! ✨🌊🏄🏾‍♀️🌊✨