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This is the face of a crazy person. Yes me! The obvious is that I look like a Hello Kitty yet I will be 47 on Saturday. The other is that I signed up to play badminton tonight. With my balance issues, orthopedic issues, out of shape issue, barely walks good self. I must be crazy. Either that or I am so desperate to make a friend and be active I am willing to kill myself doing it. Really, what’s the worst that can happen? Broken bones? I’ve done that already. Almost all of them. Some more than once. I may just have a good time and a good laugh. Even if it’s at my expense. Maybe I’ll make a sympathy friend when I’m carried out by ambulance? 😂 I want to make friends and also get in shape. If I died today my chalk outline would be a circle. It’s bad. I played softball and basketball in high school. I broke records. Even though I was born crippled. My mind really thinks I can do these things. I’m optimistic. I played softball with my church a few years ago and was playing second base and dove for a grounder on my hip that I’ve had 3 surgeries on already. I had to have someone run for me after that but had one of the highest batting averages on the team. Our turn on the field I was put as slow pitch back catcher though after that. Then I got overheated and almost had a heart attack. This is badminton though. My brain is not wired to play badminton like I played softball my whole life though. This is easy sports. Gentle just to get out there. Although I did try yoga and end up in the ER. It’s easy they said. Try it they said. Yet here I go to play badminton. Please make it worth my while! Yesterday my dog got loose. I went to get her and she took off running. So there I was running (I use that term loosely, it looks more like seizures) through my neighborhood in my pajamas. Then I heard a loud pup whining. My puppy was on her dog lead and I thought she had gotten stuck

or hurt. So then I proceeded to run (again I use that term loosely) all the way back with my dog who is supposed to have CHF. By the way I think my dogs heart may be stronger than mine! I just Knew I was going to fall dead of a heart attack right there in the street wearing pajamas chasing my dog and then running to save the other one. I made it back and my baby was laying down basking in the sun quiet as a mouse. My good girl. I would die for my dogs so why not for myself to have fun and make a friend right? 😂 I need help! I’ve lost my mind! I can’t find it anywhere either. 😢 🤪 I’m going to get skinny and make friends if it kills me! Heading to badminton. Trying to be optimistic. Trying to listen to my body and just have fun. Wish me luck! Im anxiously optimistic. Ironic isn’t it? My mind says yes. My body will let me know when I get there. Nothing ventured nothing gained right?

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Awww you're so cute !!! You don't look your age, what's your secret? XX By the way, good luck and have fun!!! XXXX

It is all snap chat filters. I barely wear makeup.

LOL. Look up some videos of competitive badminton on youtube. I think you are already well aware, but, yeah. Here's a great compilation of badminton headshots. hehe

You are definately a nut. For what it's worth, though, sometimes just imagining a funny scenario is entertaining enough with out actually BEING one of "The few, the proud, the truely insane!" :)

I should talk. I build really insanely fast race bikes that, in reality, no same person has any business riding, and partially because, as a mechanic, I have the authority to insist test-driving any machine I work on before returning it to it's owner.

Given the weight you carry, I really wish there was a bunch of people that got together on a regular basis in a huge gym an just played and had fun with 12" balloons. You know, seeing how long you can keep bopping it way up in the air without letting it hit the ground. Obviously, trying to pivot and change direction too fast could really cause some serious knee problems.

Your a seriously goofy chick, and that is totally awesome. Seriously though, it does sort of sound like you might be a little hell-bent on self destruction just at this moment, and I hope you stay safe and do NOT make yourself the butt of EVERY joke. You don't need to be the punching bag in order to be liked. Promise.

I have been around a good long while, and I'm super-smart, and an empath, just like you. I am seeing a good person, and a person I have come to regard as a friend, who is feeling a little reckless. It's as plain as day in your post, really. Please be safe. Okay?

I’m safe. I actually had a blast! I lived to tell about it too! I am signed up every Tuesday for an hour and a half of easy sports. Badminton today was fun. I really tried to be careful. It sports so no one gets hurt. But hey, I do have good padding if I fall! Lol it was on sand and for me that made it a little harder. We are going to play horse in basketball, beach ball volley ball. It’s a plastic blow up ball. Tennis which we will just attempt to hit it back and forth. Not actually play or count points. I said I may need to be the cheer leader for that one. 😂 Wiffleball, corn hole, mini golf, horse shoes etc. It truly is very easy going. No pressure. At your own pace. So I’m going to try to go every Tuesday. If I get tired I will rest. It is so fun. I’m not even sure I’m the least healthy one. Probably but I do try my best. I’m in it for the fun more than anything and just getting out of this recliner and having fun.

Personally old-soul I want to ride one of those insanely fast bikes!!! Sounds so fun. I want to live! Not wait to die. I’ve wasted way too much of my life to be sitting in a recliner watching tv alone 24/7. It’s time to LIVE even if it kills me. I’m going to die one day. I want to go out with a bang not sitting in a recliner. My doctors tell me don’t do this and don’t do that. That’s when I call BS. I am not dangerous. Really. Goofy, yes. I’m tired of worrying, Fear, recliners etc. If my doctors had their way I would have been in a wheelchair at age 3. Yet I broke records in sports. If my doctors had their way i would be sitting here waiting to die. 2 days of rest (which I will probably need not from injury but soreness) is so worth that one magical night of fun. It really was badminton. I think worse case would be a fall and potential fracture. In my case it’s so worth it! I’m too young to give up yet. 🤪😜

The sane people are boring lol, you look beautiful 😚💜💜💜💜

I had a BLAST and lived to tell about it! Nothing ventured nothing gained I’ll feel it tomorrow but tonight I am happy and I had fun

Hey 47 is still young believe me- that was decades ago for me!

My mind agrees. My body not so much! 😂

I know what you mean as I age!

Glad you had an awesome time pal! They say when a person's body is sore due to exertion, the best way to free one's self from the pain is more exercise. I find slow, easy stretches to be key though. Your a smart cookie. You know. I'm willing to bet you did NO stretching before you started last night. I know I wouldn't have! lol

You know, the length of one's hospital stay is not ALWAYS and accurate measure of how good a time we had. Heh. (Sometimes, but not ALWAYS!)

Anyhow, I'm really glad you had an awesome time and are home safe and sound.

Today I am really not moving very fluidly. Boy am I sore! Sore is nothing to me though. I’m signed up for every Tuesday. Next week is Tennis. Not true games but more like trying to hit it to each other. Then blow up beach ball volleyball. It’s not super physical but keeping me active. At least once a week if all goes well. Now I’m going to take a hot shower on my muscles and go run some errands. (Slowly and like a cripple) I’m blessed to be walking even with limitations so I’m going to quit feeling sorry for myself and move and enjoy the blessing God has given me while I can. This new life may take me in another direction from my home life now but it can’t be a worse place. Even if I’m alone doing it. One step forward ignoring the 2 steps back and then taking another step forward. I was a physical wild child when young. So many broken bones aside from my wreck that broke too many at once. I can push. I may not get back to my old self but I can make a better new self. Baby steps but it is important to push yourself or you never have any growth. Exercise or activity is the best medicine in my opinion. So I’m off to shower and run errands. I’m glad you’re my friend.

Hopeful Tink! You look adorable! I'm glad you had fun, but take care of yourself, too. You are a good lady and we don't want anything to happen to you.

I’m very stiff but so proud of myself. I actually did pretty good although a little unsteady. The sand made it worse for sure. Signed up every Tuesday. I’m being careful but conquering my fears and pushing myself. I am trying. I am tired of being a slave to my disabilities. Faith over Fear. I need to live while I can. I’ve already had 3 hip surgeries. The next will be a replacement and my knees. I’m doing it while I can to the best of my abilities. Glad to hear from you! Hope all is well in Windys world! ❤️

Lol. You have a great sense of humor and a great outlook.

Sometimes. Being hear has helped me a lot. I have good days and bad. One step forward and 2 steps back. I do refuse to sit until I die. I hurt either way so why not have some fun.

You are just so cute! Hope you have fun and try not to get hurt!

Didn’t get hurt just very sore! Not moving fluidly today but signed up for every Tuesday. I’m counting on practice making perfect. Or at least improvements in stamina and soreness. The cute comes from snap chat but thank you so much. I’m a goofball for sure.

Very pretty!

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It’s all Snapchat. I had no makeup on. I thank you though. That’s me being silly. My grandson taught me how to do snapchat! 😂 He is 8. We were being silly. I’m obsessed with Hello Kitty though. I have a large collection. Talk about personality disorder. I prefer young at heart though. 😜

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That’s exactly what I thought also.

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However, you’re still very pretty

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Thank you. 💖

Cute photo! I thought it was a photo of a 16-18 year old! You look amazing! X glad you had lots of fun! Hope you’re okay

... I seriously need to get more active!

Take lots of care hun x

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It’s Snapchat. I wasn’t even wearing makeup. The hello

Kitty looks young. Thanks though.

I think activity or exercise is the best medicine. Idle minds breed anxiety and negativity.

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