Motivation

[Anonymouslyme]

My anxiety and depression is worse than it was 2 years ago. The middle to end of 2018 was the worst for me. I almost lost my mother. The night my dad had just gotten back from Barbados we all went to sleep I wake up at 2 am check on my mom try waking her up, she was unresponsive but breathing weird I thought she was just sleep. I go back downstairs to my room 15 minutes later I check on her again and she’s foaming from the mouth and I knew that was a very bad sign. Come to find out she overdosed on her suboxine and had a seizure on both sides of her brain the doctors didn’t think she would make it. My dad blamed us. 4 months of my mom being in the hospital and my dad had took us out to eat I used his phone on the way back I find myself scrolling through his photos looking for pictures of me and my little sister when we were younger and I find a picture of him and another woman kissing who wasn’t my mother and guess where they were ...in Barbados! He’d been cheating on my mom. This situation still eats me alive my mom made it and she’s on bed rest but I can’t help to think how this will play out in the future 😢

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I’m sorry for your pain & suffering.

Thank you for being here.