Depressed about my ex

[Samsonite_]

Hi guys. I broke up with my ex back in sept right before our 5 year anniversary. Things got very bad between us and that’s a whole other story but while going through the break I started to experience panic attacks I was so scared I felt like I was having a heart attack or something I had never experienced it. And Everytime I would be around him it would happen mostly cause he didn’t want things to end. Here I am now and I’m still having troubles with this especially on Mondays for some reason. I work late on Mondays 12-8:30 at night so I’m mostly alone sitting st my desk and everything just starts to flood my mind. Recently I just keep thinking if I made the right choice and I miss him and it just consumes me. I get really down on myself and I want to reach out to him but I know it’s probably not a good idea. I thought by breaking up I’d have peace and some of panic attacks and anxiety would go away but I feel like it’s gotten worse. It also got so bad today that I started crying and went to into our work break room iv never had a breakdown at work before and I feel embarrassed my manager just had no idea what to say to me.

[teemo1]

I hear you. I have been there.

A lot of folks in this forum found this article to be helpful:

markmanson.net/how-to-let-go

[Samsonite_ in reply to teemo1]

Thank you for this! Very helpful article. And gave some peace of mind

[Xenia33 in reply to Samsonite_]

Thank you for this article. I need to read it several times. I realize what I already thought but wouldn't admit - I am in a toxic relationship. Thank you again for posting this article.