It never gets easier

[KayBeck]

I can’t stop panicking. There’s something wrong with my brain. I just want to be normal. I want my life back. I want control of my body. I don’t want to be this way anymore.

[Coralrose5]

Hey Kay, I hear you. I experienced that as well, it’s awful. Are you on any meds or seeing a therapist? I have tried all the holistic approaches but I needed meds because I was At the point where my body /brain would not calm down. Try to do nice things for yourself like taking a bath, walking outside, deep breathing exercises.

[KayBeck in reply to Coralrose5]

Hey and yes, I’m currently trying Paxil but my body doesn’t seem to like it and I still panic on it. I seem even more on edge. Im also seeing a therapist. I meditate everyday. I do feel like I need a vacation but I haven’t been able to save for one. (Working on it) I do need to do more stuff that gets me out of the house and out of my head. Seems like all I do is work and come home.

[Coralrose5 in reply to KayBeck]

I’m glad you’re receiving medical help. I understand how hard it is to find the right medication... my doctor recently said to increase my antidepressant but it made my anxiety worse! It’s challenging. I agree with the others that mentioned taking it one day at a time... it’s frustrating but seems to be the only way. We’re with you.

[JAYnLA]

Hey Kay. I was saying to myself several times tonight, “I just want to feel normal again.” I so get it. I also beleive that eventually I will be okay. I’m already better than I was a year ago. Hang in there and hang with us whenever you want. We get it.

[KayBeck in reply to JAYnLA]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it. I’m glad I found this site. At least I know now that I’m not alone in this. I use to think I was the only one with this kind of anxiety.

[heilene09]

Keep hope, that's one thing that you must not lose. Hope that things will change, get better. Breathing and remembering what there is to be grateful for helps me. I know how you feel. I feel immobile at times. You are worth it and enough. It helps to take baby step and I keep telling myself to not think on the past or the future but stay in the moment even if it is a junk one...thinking on the past or future makes it worse.

[KayBeck in reply to heilene09]

Yes I completely agree. My mind is sooooo occupied with what if’s and it’s exhausting. I do try to be positive but it seems like any and everything sets off my panics. Maybe it’s the medicine. But I’m thinking maybe it’s the fear of another panic and not just me thinking about my health so much. Who knows. I just need it to stop.

[heilene09 in reply to KayBeck]

I've been learning that it is such a struggle in the mind. Just like our minds can be our enemy or other. I constantly am trying to stay concious with every thought and it is a battle. I tell my mind shut up, or all kinds of things. Mostly training my mind not to rely or bring up emotions mostly bad when my subconcious wants to remember stuff.

[KayBeck in reply to heilene09]

Yea. It’s not easy at all. But I’m determined to keep trying.

[hypercat54]

Hi there is nothing wrong with your brain except this awful depression/anxiety which makes us feel so awful. The way out is to seek medical help if you haven't already as you can get better although your depressive thoughts are telling you different.

None of us want to feel like this but there is hope out there so hang on to that. Just try and take 1 day at a time and concentrate on getting through it. x

[KayBeck in reply to hypercat54]

Thanks. I have sought medical help. I’m taking medicine and seeing a therapist. It just feels like I’m hyper-sensitive or something.

[hypercat54 in reply to KayBeck]

You might well be as some of us are. It takes time and work to deal with painful buried feelings and emotions so persevere and you will start to notice changes. x

[KayBeck in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you😌

[Sunnidayz1]

Hi Kay. Im sorry you are going through this. I used to feel the same. I went from all day anxiety and panic to now coming down from medication and only feeling anxiety sometimes.

It will get better. It takes time though & work on your part and self care. No one should feel the horrible feelings that go along with anxiety and panic. It's terrible but the truth is millions, yea millions, suffer with this (and depression) and we just gotta be patient with ourselves and do the work for a better life and brighter future. I decided to take the talk therapy and meds route but there are different avenues to take to deal with this. Do your research. So much good info out there to help.

Good luck to you. We are here, as a community, to support you and each other. <<<HUGS>>>

XxSunni

[KayBeck in reply to Sunnidayz1]

Thank you so much

[Kat63]

I feel the same way a lot of the time. You are not alone. In fact, there are probably millions of us.

[KayBeck in reply to Kat63]

Yea... both unfortunately and fortunately

[purl1]

HI Kay, I feel the exact same way. unfortunately this is our new normal for now. I want to be the person I was just 4 months ago, but I have a lot of work to do. people on this site recommended the book Hope and help for your nerves by Claire Weekes. I have been reading it and it has helped a lot. I believe she has videos on you tube also. I hope it helps.

[KayBeck in reply to purl1]

Sorry for the late reply. Yea someone recommended her YouTube video to me as well. I listened to a little. I can definitely relate to wanting to be like I used to be. I’ve found I’ve calmed a little but with new issues... smh.

[heilene09]

: )

[mvillarreal]

Hi, Kay. Is nausea a part of the panicking? From what I hear, fennel can help with that. Is it more just feeling confused and panicked? I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough time. I know it might sound hard to believe, but I have found that, eventually, it does get easier. Do you have an animal companion? I've found that this helps me when I feel panicked or edgy.