Feeling all alone with anxiety pounding at the door

[a_work_in_progress]

I am normally a fully functioning individual. I hate that when anxiety

comes pounding at my door It doesn't go away. I do fine for months and

months than one day - BAM! Full blown shakes, sleeplessness and can't eat.

I am normally a strong person. Anxiety knocks me right off my feet. I feel like

there is no tomorrow. You just can't describe it to someone who has not had

to deal with this before. I am embarrassed to tell anyone in my life. I just don't

know how much longer I can keep this up before I can't function anymore. I feel

like I just want to give up. Its too hard.

[mari87]

I feel the same way exactly the same I’m having an anxiety attack as we speak

[a_work_in_progress in reply to mari87]

When I came across this site 2 3 4 (I lost track of time) I was in a full blown

panic attack. I am still having anxiety but by reading and receiving some of the

reply's it has helped me to settle down a little

[a_work_in_progress in reply to mari87]

it really helps to know there are people out there going through

the same thing. It makes me feel less alone

[a_work_in_progress in reply to mari87]

are you ok?

[AdamS105]

Don’t give up.

[mari87]

Yes I understand and I keep telling my self that I’ll be okay that this shall pass that I’ve been here before and trying to fall asleep is so hard right now I’m so tired I close my eyes and boom my heart starts to race full speed I feel like I’m having a heart attack I start hyperventilating it’s so hard to not feel fear but right now I’m lost

[Justbreathe3]

You should never be embarrassed about your anxiety. It is a medical illness just like any other illness. If you had diabetes you would not be embarrassed. Anxiety is the same thing. It can came and go. I used to be ashamed of my anxiety and depression until I realized it is a medical condition. I have been on disability for 2 months and I am going back to work in a week. I am terrified that my anxiety will fill my entire day but I realized this is a medical condition. Not everyone knows what it feels like but many people have known someone who has had problems like ours. Hold your head up proud and know you are never alone in your struggle.

[Mcats in reply to Justbreathe3]

Sometimes I forget that they're illnesses and judge myself super harshly, so thanks for this reminder.

[Kat63]

Anxiety can be terrifying. I know in my head that it’s anxiety - it’s a thing going on in my head, not necessarily realistic. But head-knowledge only helps sometimes. I hate anxiety and panic attacks, and I wish they would just go away and leave me alone.