Introduction

[richw612]

Hello all, my name is Rich and this is my first day on here. Trying to figure out what is going on. I was not diagnosed with clinical depression but most people in my family have it and it recently occurred to me that I have lived in a bubble for many years. I'm married with children and I just follow my wife around like a little puppy dog doing whatever she wants. I don't have interests that I am aware of, I have social anxiety so bad I can't even go to the doctor to talk about this. I feel like I just live day to day and don't enjoy anything and have no contribution to life around me. My wife and kids all get along, I'm just the odd guy out. I can write about it online but that's about it. I came here because if I went out and made friends to talk to, not really a great opener. That was a little all over the place but trying create an image in multiple areas with few words. Not really sure what this is like or what I can or can't share. Just hoping to find some people that can relate.

[Sablegirl]

Hi Richw612,

Hi, I’m very acquainted with social anxiety! Do I feel like I live my life for others and not so much me, dido. Although for me, it’s aging parents and they can’t help getting older, ya know?? My husband wanted out of our marriage about 6 yrs into it, we had 2 children & made our choices to stick married(shorter version of I wanted to work on it, he didn’t) until 10.5 yrs ago. My oldest(son) was 17 & my babygirl was 13.

Anyway, I’m “the divorced kid” who didn’t find a 2nd love.. sorry... you’re in the right place!

[Sablegirl in reply to Sablegirl]

Do you sometimes feel like you’re all alone in the middle of the room of people?? I don’t know what it’s called, but I’m 51 & remember feeling that way back to like 5-6yrs old up...

[richw612 in reply to Sablegirl]

Yes, and maybe a touch of insanity but I started creating faces and banking the people. Maybe too much to share? Thought I was alone

[richw612 in reply to Sablegirl]

Thanks for sharing, I can relate to that. My wife wants out of our marriage but I push to fight for us because she is all I got. Without her I have Nobody. She doesn't really want to deal with my feelings but at least it's someone to say hi to at the end of each day. Guess it's another reason I signed up here, just want to get my feelings out and hopefully one day be able to talk with someone and not talk about how difficult life is and lonely. Here's to hoping.

[kittenkisses91]

Welcome to the group Richw612! You are in the right place. I also have depression and social anxiety. Continue sharing with the group and following along. Just reading others posts have helped me a lot. You don't feel so alone.

[Hidden]

Imagines with my happy childhood play in front of my eyes. When time passed and I grew up I was more and more unhappy, with physical manifestation of depression and anxiety. Today I'm lost in this life, feeling that I missed somewhere in the road of life my purpose in this life.

[marheart]

We are searching for positivity to help each other.

[Laurie12]

Hi there and glad u wrote an email. Socializing can be hard but it's nice to share things with others and have bonds. We are all a little odd and I think it's nice being ourselves. What have you enjoyed on the past?

[richw612]

If I'm going to be real that was the most encouraging question I heard in a long time. One without a great answer but encouraging. I have not been asked what I enjoy in, well I don't remember. I'm sure it happened. I do remember feeling alive and going out with people. One day and I don't know when it happened. There was always a reason why I couldn't do what I wanted so I slowly lost interest. I was an athlete, raced bikes, worked as a lifeguard in highschool and continued swimming competitions well after. Taught my kids how to swim, one of them is currently on a swim team. It wasn't having kids, I included them. I'm not sure what happened. I honestly just looked being with people for the most part. Being alone is really hard. Lost touch with all of my friends from high school and just haven't really been able to connect. Your right, having connections is really important.