Ok. Time to just lay it all out because I know nobody can judge me here, because nobody knows who I really am. Here goes...
I have dealt with depression most of my life. I have many signs of being autistic so I can't deal with people very well, because of this I don't have any friends that I can turn to and lean on. I'm married and I know my wife wants to help, but she doesn't understand depression or anything else I'm going through. Lastly...
This one is hard for me to even type about. I've been dealing lately with repressed memories from when I was young. I don't know how young I was but I remember being sexually abused by a parent. I can't even remember which parent it was. I'm supposed to go to my parents tomorrow for thanksgiving, how can I?
There are many times when I just want to end it, I just want the constant pain to stop! I can't take this anymore! I've tried to get help, I contacted mental health about 3 weeks ago, they finally had me come in and fill out paperwork the other day but I won't be able to actually talk to any kind of counselor until the 13th.
I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take.