Just surviving

[faulhallen]

So I keep telling myself I’m going to be on here more again. I miss conversing with people and feeling like maybe I was helping someone but every time I open the app I just can’t think of anything to say or I’ll open a post and several minutes later realize I didn’t actually read any of it.

I know that this is more commonly understood talking to people here than in life in general but I’m always so tired anymore and I’ve been having issues focusing again. I keep waiting to bounce back and I haven’t.

Life has just been stressful. Work has been extra frustrating, I keep thinking about how expensive living on my own will be and second guessing my plans. I thought I found someone I could be good friends with and enjoy talking about just normal things but that seems to have ended abruptly for reasons I don’t quite understand.

I shouldn’t think this way and I know it but it makes me wonder sometimes what is wrong with me that nobody in my life seems to want to talk to me regularly even when I’m avoiding the stressful and dramatic portions of my life.

Oh well... I just wanted to let everyone know I’m ok still. Or as ok as I can’t be sitting in the local children’s hospital with my son who has a GI bleed and was throwing up blood last night. He hasn’t thrown up since early this morning and when his fever is down he is vocal and seemingly happy. It’s weird. He should be fine as well, hopefully sooner than later.

I hope everyone is doing ok. I wish you all the best.

[Agora1]

Oh my goodness faulhallen, I'm so sorry your son is in the hospital.

I hope he will soon be back at home. I'm glad you reached out to us.

It's nice for all of us to have a place we can come to when feeling down

or alone. Take care of yourself too. xx

[faulhallen in reply to Agora1]

He’s doing a lot better today. Whatever was causing the bleeding doesn’t appear to have been too severe because he hasn’t thrown up since yesterday morning. They’re going to hold him until they’re certain he can handle taking his seizure medicine without an IV and he can go home if nothing else goes wrong. Hopefully just another day or so

Thank you for your support 🙂. It’s why I miss being on here more than I currently am.

[Agora1 in reply to faulhallen]

I'm glad your son is doing better and wish him continued recovery.

I can only imagine how difficult this has been for you. We are here

for each other and it's a nice feeling. xx

[hypercat54]

Hi I am sorry about your son. Hopefully he will be well and home again soon.

I get what you mean as sometimes I am the same. You are one of the main stays of our site FH and I always look out for and read your replies. You do come across as a lovely caring person so keep on helping us when you can.

All the best. x

[faulhallen in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you. He’s doing a lot better. Hopefully just another day or two and he’ll be home again. Despite everything he’s been giggly and vocal.

Thank you again for you support and your kind words. I hope you’re doing well 🙂

[hypercat54 in reply to faulhallen]

Ok I think. have very little mental energy at the moment so keeping any replies short and sweet (or not so maybe?). x