Anxiety

[Rlost]

I hate anxiety so much. I hate myself for not being able to control my emotions. I hate myself for not realizing it's just anxiety when I am in the middle of a panic attack. I don't know what to do. I don't want to take prescribed medication because I get more anxiety with the thought of taking medication. I have been trying natural remedies like teas from fresh herbs, but they have not been working since today I experienced a panic attack that lasted at least 30 minutes. I have a therapist but I don't know whats wrong with me. My family thinks I am just a lazy person and don't want to work. But who wants to live like this I wish I could be working and not have anymore panic attacks. I don't know what to do I have anxiety at this moment, but not in panic. I feel like I lose control of myself when I am in panic.

[Dolphin80]

This is exactly how I feel. Feel better. Just know u are not alone. I take meds though.

[Rlost in reply to Dolphin80]

Does your medication help you?

[Oneseedatatime]

Rlost,

Be proud of yourself for recognizing what you are experiencing. Be proud of yourself for engaging in therapy. Be proud of yourself for getting through it as you wrote your post. Be proud of yourself for exploring and experimenting with natural remedies.

Your apprehension with medication is understandable. I was once told that if you can't beat fear do it scared. You have the desire, strength, and ability to achieve the change you desire. You are in control, no one or thing controls you (this is a myth).

[Rlost in reply to Oneseedatatime]

Thank you so much, you made me cry... I don't know what else to do I don't want to feel this anymore.