In my eyes my life is a horrible mess

[Lost_One]

Yesterday I was ok but today I feel like there is no hope. This feeling of hopelessness actually started yesterday evening but it’s really bad today. I can’t function and every thought I have is negative.

[kenster1]

hi try break up your days ahead.get out and about in the fresh air come home do something about the house take a long bath anything to fill up your time.i even do crosswords.

[Lost_One in reply to kenster1]

Thank you for the reply kenster1. See, here’s the thing. Being home depresses me when I am there. It’s just a depressing place anymore. A house is supposed to be a home. A beautiful safe haven. A place where you kick up your feet without a care on your mind. A safe haven. A place where you lay on the couch with pride, not a care on your mind and go to sleep. I don’t feel any of that there. It’s just not the home that it should be after all these years. I have nobody to blame but myself and I have no way to change it. It’s all catching up with me.

[pink83737]

Your anxiety is lying to you. THERE IS HOPE! You can overcome this, it will get better I can promise you that, I never would’ve thought I would be at such a stable place where I’m at now, but look I managed to do it with the help of meds and therapy! You will be okay, go out and get some sunshine, eat healthy and get some exercise you’ll feel better with getting some fresh air or even walking to get the mail or something !

[Sim_]

I know. It's hard to keep hoping when there's nothing to reassure you that things will get better, and when the bad days go on for too long. I struggle to find hope every day, and sometimes I do. I start by getting out of bed and taking a shower or cleaning my room while listening to music. It clears your mind a little. What keeps me going is just constantly thinking about all the things I will go on to do after I get through this. So imagine yourself a few years, or even months later, traveling to that place you always wanted to see, getting that job you always wanted - all the things you wanted to be as a kid. And know that you deserve to see those happen, and you will. Just keep getting through this day by day, and trust that an amazing life is waiting for you on the other side.

[Jimdubu]

I am sorry for what you are going through, is they're anyone you can talk too? a friend ,a sibling or your church pastor? if you fell in crisis you should call 911 or National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255. there is also a crisis text line at 741741. Have you been seeing a therapist? if not here is a number for an organization that can give you free counselling advise and refer you to professionals in your area 1-855-382-5433. the one who told you that you anxiety and depression are lying to you is spot on. What I find that helps is to sit down and write down all my blessings. When you see how much you have been blessed with most of the time anxiety and depression run away, especially when you start to thank the one that blessed you. bit.ly/2yc8nk5 here is a link to some resources. Hope they help, Prayers my friend.