I’ve been self harm free for 5 years now.
It’s been a really, really hard few months for me to say the least.
I just keep thinking, “what’s the point?”
I can’t seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now.
I self-harmed for the release that the pain gave me. So that I could feel something instead of feeling so numb all of the time.
The numbness is creeping back and I’m just scared. I don’t want to go back to self-harming but it’s so unbelievably tempting right now.
I just felt like I needed to vent here.