Everyone suffering

[ChoaticAdhd]

I know first hand how everyone feels who are suffering with depression & so on, feeling like no one is there or is listening to you. Yea been there am there but if you are thinking about ending it please seek help ASAP. I didn’t & tried I honestly wasn’t supposed to make it i don’t know how I did because at the end the doctors had done everything they could & said now it’s only up to me which I was in a coma at that time, well by some miracle I woke up out of my coma but the pain I seen in everyone’s eyes and how broken their hearts were as they sat everyday by my side was horrible. I realized i had just passed the pain and questions on to everyone else & who knows what would of happened if I didn’t make it. See in that split moment I was just focusing on everything wrong & not thinking ahead, I’m thankful I made it, people do love you & yes I still have my down days but now I think when it’s really low. So please don’t act upon the moment seek help before you make that decision, your life can and will get better. Just seek help please!

[HearYou]

Thank you for your post. You were very articulate, so there are no further words I could imagine adding, other than, Thank you so very much.

[ChoaticAdhd in reply to HearYou]

Thank you I just wanted to reach out from my experience because at that moment you decide to end your life your not thinking about the bigger picture and how much your life can change for the better. I just don’t want to see others go down that route

[HearYou in reply to ChoaticAdhd]

Many people seldom receive outright thanks and appreciation. Please accept my comments as such....... as you richly deserve them. xoxo

[B4andafter]

In our darkest moments, it's hard to see anything positive could happen. I found your story very inspirational and thank you for sharing!

[ChoaticAdhd in reply to B4andafter]

Exactly my darkest moment took over me where I even thought my children would be better off without me but that wasn’t the case at all thinking no one cares at the time and why should you all it does is pass the pain onto the others that you couldn’t see that do love you because you have your mind convinced that nobody will care

[kevinloveslen]

Hello @chaoticADHD,

Wow, I am so glad that you are still with us! It does sound like a miracle that you made it. I am happy to see that, unlike so many people, you were able to see what your actions did to your loved ones. The hurt and the pain that it inflicted on them. I did the same thing to my wife and children four years ago, so I know how hard it is to see the pain in their eyes. Thank you for encouraging others! Please know that I will be praying for you that the Lord gives you His purpose for your life and that you will be free from the “down days”. May God Bless You!

[ChoaticAdhd in reply to kevinloveslen]

Thank you & I believe it was a miracle cause honestly they had given up but the day after they said that it was up to me if I wanted to live and fight I woke up I just don’t want to see someone do the same thing my life hasn’t changed by far yet I actually just got out of a domestic abusive relationship a couple months ago but I’m refusing to give up I’m doing my best to get where I want to be. I just been through so much maybe my calling is to inspire others as long as I can secretly save a life I am fine with that.