Over a period of time I have identified and learned about some of the things that contribute to my anxiety and depression disorders. Yes, there are external issues that effect our thinking. In a nutshell, my contributors are my close family. The things that they do are not wrong or right, they just are.
I had an opportunity to get away from my family, and my world, for a few years. During this time I changed a lot of things in my life and my emotional maturity skyrocketed. I saw life from a different perspective and I chose the view that served me best. I was in control of certain things and I didn’t care about the other things.
When I returned, I changed a lot in my life, but somethings I just slid back into. I have the new knowledge, I know the risks, but after everything I could only change myself. Some of the same forces, that had such a negative effect on me, are working at me again. The difference is that now I know about them.
The problem comes in that knowledge may not be enough. These forces are cunning and they know how to slip through the cracks. I think that if I went on unaware of these things I would definitely regress to nearly where I was before. As it is I can feel some pressure from being back in my old place.
If I were to give advice to anyone else, I would probably tell them to run as fast as they can. I know that separation would be good for part of me, but I don’t think that I can bear the costs. I don’t really expect to get the answer, I just get strength from bringing the issue into the light. Like most problems, exposure is part of the path to clarity and a chance at a solution. I just don’t know if knowledge will be enough.
how I’m feeling 
Is depression purely a medical condition or is it the situation of your life ?
Is my depression real? 
It’s not enough 
