All alone.

[Scaredy-cat87]

I wake up in despair, I go to sleep sad. I feel angry, helpless, and worthless. I am scared of leaving my house and I have panic attacks that feel like I am going to die. I bawl before I leave for work and while I am here. I feel like I try to shove my burden on my family because I can’t control the pain, desperate anger, depression and hopelessness that is never ending. I fight myself everyday to be a responsible independent woman that I want to be and turn into the pathetic whining child that I am trying to overcome. I just need to know if I am really alone? Is there anyone else that feels like the world is just disappointed day after disappointed day waiting to die?

[Shancan80]

I feel the same way every darn day of life! I understand what you are going through.

[Dreamer468]

You are not alone in this!!!!! Some of us are the victims of your same conditions. If you want to talk I'm here for you!!!!!

[Flyingdon]

It’s definitely not gender, I’m a guy and you explain my life better than I can. If you need an ear I can spare one, may we all find peace of mind and comfort. No one understands when I try to talk, they say how good I have it but all I feel is sorrow and despair. No explanation.

[beatitude]

I felt like that where I used to live; bad things would happen to me if I went out, and I would panic at having to open the front door. It was agoraphobia, I suppose. As you work and presumably leave at the same time each day, is there anyone at home, or a neighbour who could call for you, and walk with you a short way, to make you feel safe? If they could do that just for a short while, you might find yourself feeling there is nothing to fear. Fear is a strong emotion that everyone can relate to and you might find people more understanding than you think if you tell them it's interfering with your life.

[baileyf14]

I am so sorry you are going through this. Just know that you are not alone! There will always be someone who is there for you. Have you tried speaking with a therapist about what you are dealing with? They will know the best ways to help you control and prevent it. I hope everything gets better!