I currently had a really big opportunity fall through, one that I had been working towards and counting on for a very long time. And now I've entered this spiral where nothing feels good anymore, and I'm constantly anxious. It's never been this bad before and I'm struggling to visualise anything good happening for me ever. I'm in a situation where I cant afford any therapy or medication and that's definitely not making things any easier. I really want to believe that I wont feel this way forever, but with the loss of my dream I feel like I've let everyone down and lost my sense of self. It's almost paralyzing to make any decisions now.