Everyday I wake up dreading the fact that I have to be awake. If only i could sleep then I wouldn’t have so much pain. I have panic attacks everyday and I’m becoming hopeless. I always have some sort of chest pain and it scares the daylights out of me. I don’t want to die. I’m so young. I’ve had all the EKG’s, blood tests, stress tests and echocardiograms and every time they say I’m fine. Well then why don’t I feel fine? I’m scared to live my life because I’m terrified that I’m going to die. The days don’t get easier for me, they get harder, and I’m at a loss for what I should do.
Living in Fear: Everyday I wake up... - Anxiety and Depre...
Hi anxious101, I found out the hard way in that meds, therapy and psychiatrist don't
work unless you put 110% of yourself in getting better. I wasted years hoping and wishing and crying that my fears would go away. Therapy, meds and psych doc are not
magic cures only crutches in helping us find the right tools to heal.
One of them being Acceptance in that anxiety is not harmful. It's nothing but a lie
our mind tells us that we believe and then it brings about intense fear and panic.
Once we learn to accept the fear and the hopelessness, we get back control of
our lives. Eventually my therapy became less, my meds were reduced and then
weaned off of and the psych doctor was no longer on speed dial.
I didn't have a wonderful support group like this and yet I won. It is possible.
That's not to say that anxiety doesn't rear it's ugly head from time to time BUT...
the difference is that I know how to kick it to the curb. I'm in control now and I'm
not giving it up. We're here for you anxious101. You are not alone. xx
Anxious 101, good for you for reaching out. I agree with Agora1. What you are doing right now is not living you are existing. I know you are afraid of dying. I cannot imagine what they feels like as I have not experienced that. Are you also afraid of living? What do you enjoy? What would you do if you did not have the anxiety? Could that be a motivation for taking small steps forward?