In my worst moments I think a lot about the way I'm suffering and if there is anyone out there feeling the same, suffering...helpless and anxious. I wonder ifthis life is worth it, so many people suffering, what keep us going? Putting kids in this world, hoping for better days that never come. I don't know. I feel for this people and I suffer even more.
I'm not suicidal, not at all. It's just something I think and never shared.
You are not alone. 💜
Thank you for the love and support loveandlightseeker . I wish all the best!
I feel the same way , and then some. I’m glad you’re in a stable place and hope things only get better for you.
Thank you Quest4peace It's good to hear you also think about it. If yoi ever need to talk I'm here. I wish you all the best.
Thank you very much
Yes. When my pain is at its worst level I do wonder is it worth all the suffering. .specially when reaching nearly 80 and knowing as my body gets even older how will I ever cope. But nature has its own way of coping and I refuse to feel sorry for myself.
There is always help out there and we have to make that special effort to find it.
I do know it's hard..and feel for you. It's my way of coping...
Thank you annietap40 . It's just so hard to look to the "brighter side" I feel like this side is fading away and the other as taking over.
What I try and do at the end of each day is to think of one positive thing that happened during the day no matter how small for example a smile u gave or received, a wee speck of blue sky, a bird singing, pretty flowers. .life's list of happy happenings are endless but have to be searched for.
Write them down and now and again look at yr happy list.
I find the actual time u take "doing" this takes one's mind off the pain. Even if only for a short time.
Read yr happy notes end of the week..and u will find the reasons to stay alive.
Hope this helps..
annietap40 you are right. I never felt like this would be so hard. I try to do it. But, it's weird how bad things always feel stronger.
Thank you. It helps a lot, it's a reminder there is great little things out there. And that I shouldn't let myself drown on this thoughts.
Lots of love! Thank you for everything.
Yes I know exactly where you’re coming from I to think about what I’m going through my brain just don’t turn off it thinks about anything and everything it’s like a magnifying glass it highlights everything I know it sounds silly but you just can’t help your brain to stop thinking I wouldn’t wish this on anyone it changes your whole personality and I haven’t even got any energy I was on Sertraline for eight weeks didn’t do anything for me now they start me on venlafaxine I’ve only been on it two weeks I’m at my wits end because I’m driving everyone nuts in my house
Yes. It's an eternal torture and we can't just runaway from it because it's inside of us. Being alone it's even harder because I think even more. I hope the meds work and give you peace. Let me know how it goes Teddy45 . I hope it get better soon, for both of us
Where u from and what pills on u taking? X
I'm not on any meds right now. I just can't cope with the side effects. I'm jist taking pills to sleep at night.
How is the venlafaxine working for you? For me the worst part is the insomnia and the heavy tired feeling all the time, but not being able to rest.
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I know how you feel Teddy with the thoughts just going around and around in our heads and being helpless to stop them. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone either. I’m trying to learn ways to change my thinking by challenging my thoughts and using meditation, but it’s a slow process. I’ve been this way and thought this way for so long that I just don’t know any other way to be.
Yes I know exactly where you’re coming from I to think about what I’m going through my brain just don’t turn off it thinks about anything and everything it’s like a magnifying glass it highlights everything I know it sounds silly but you just can’t help your brain to stop thinking I wouldn’t wish this on anyone it changes your whole personality and I haven’t even got any energy I was on Sertraline for eight weeks didn’t do anything for me now they start me on venlafaxine I’ve only been on it two weeks I’m at my wits end because I’m driving everyone nuts in my house
I appriciate your words and I feel the pain of suffering and rushing through so I don’t feel the good precious stuff in life as much from anxiety from feeling I’m so strange and undeserving and then the negativity of depression, hard to express the hell. I dream of a heaven. I try to believe life is worth it but honestly I think after my kids are grown I may not function as well as I try my hardest for them but even in giving my all I am still suffering to the point where i feel I am nothing. Maybe nothing without them. I don’t know.
I hear you. We have to believe life is not in vain. Good wins. Let’s keep fighting with rests in between and never give up.
I feel the same and also don't feel the good and pracious part. I wish we could just take this feeling with our hands and throw away.
I'm happy to hear you have your kids to keep you strong and going. You are an amazing person and I don't even need to know you personally to say that, just by your words here I can tell. I'm sure things will turn out to be good even when they grow up, they will always be there for you and you for them. We will never give up.
You always have the most beautiful words Starrlight I always believe good wins in the end. But why can everyone be ok, live a good life, happy, peaceful, fullfilling. Why is that so hard?
I hope you feel better soon and I wish you all the best. If you need to tall I'm here.
You are beautiful and I’ve always thought so.
I don’t know why it’s so hard to live a good happy peaceful fulfilling life. Maybe it’s that we need to heal and forgive more and we keep getting hurt and it gets built up because we are sensitive but then why not be sensitive to finding the good too? What do we have against ourselves? Don’t we deserve the good? Why not?
Let us promise to do something today out of the ordinary that makes us feel good without doubts nor worries nor feeling not worthy.
Keep being beautiful my friend.
Thank you for your kind words Starrlight. I ask this to myself what do we have against ourselves?
Let us promise this for and for tomorrow, so we can make it a habit!
I feel similarly to you. I also wonder whether this is all worth it, not just for me but for everyone in the world and the kids we keep bringing into it. In all honesty I feel like it really isn’t. I feel like all the bad and suffering far outweighs the parts that are good. I’ve felt this way for a long time... I’m glad to know I’m not alone.
I know that not everyone feels this way. Most people don’t. Probably only people that suffer from some degree of depression. I am hoping someday I will finally be convinced that this really is all worth it. I hope we all do.
Yes Melantha! That's exactly what I feel. Is it worth it to live by several days of pain just to have one day or one moment of relief and happiness? It sounds crazy to me. But, as you said maybe just us, people who are suffering and battling depression and anxiety feel this way, like we see things through this veil and not clearly.
I hope too that we will feel It is worth it. Everyday I ask for that, not just for me, but for all of us out there.
Thank you, you explained it even better than I did, it's always good to feel we are not alone.
I wish you all the best.
I get where you're at.
I am not suicidal - I normally think about it a lot when I'm depressed.
For the first time I want to run away from the things I hate.
I am a realist - normally I just cry, suck it up and push forward.
I am working from home, and I feel trapped.
I think I want to be a Hobo - but my cat deserves better. LOL
Seriously though I am a mess of emotion.
Is life worth it?
Something is wrong ..or is it?
We are worth it. 
